farmor
my grandmother died today. she was truly a good person, the best person i have ever known and will ever know. she had the biggest, warmest heart. she never spoke a bad word about anyone in her entire life. she will always inspire me to be a better person. we had this special connection, and i've missed her for many years, ever since the alzheimer's. when i saw her this morning, she had her hands folded and it was like she was finally herself again.
when i got the phone call at 10 am, i got up, opened the curtains and there was a bright sun and white snow everywhere. the very same hour that she died, my cousin, her granddaughter, gave birth to a baby boy.
i don't understand the sadness that has overwhelmed me today. i was prepared for this. a long life ending naturally and peacefully, finally relieved of pain. but it's reminding me of everyone i miss. people i can't call. how misplaced my focus is.