Day 7
It's hard to keep moving forward. I don't when/where/how to take the next steps. I started counseling and right now, it seems pointless. I don't understand what this woman can say to me that'll change anything in my eyes.
I'm trying to borrow some energy from friends. I've been calling people trying to get them at least for a meal. I think that maybe if I hear how they're doing, that will motivate me to keep moving forward. It's frustrating sometimes because there are a couple of people that never answer my calls but I have no idea whether it's because they hate me or I just catch them at bad times.....every time. It doesn't help the possibilities of the latter that they never return the calls.
I really want to smoke but I don't think I can quite yet. I'm waiting until some friends come to visit, so if anyone wants to join in the festivities, just call me up or something. It should be near the end of the month.
I can't wait.
I'm trying to borrow some energy from friends. I've been calling people trying to get them at least for a meal. I think that maybe if I hear how they're doing, that will motivate me to keep moving forward. It's frustrating sometimes because there are a couple of people that never answer my calls but I have no idea whether it's because they hate me or I just catch them at bad times.....every time. It doesn't help the possibilities of the latter that they never return the calls.
I really want to smoke but I don't think I can quite yet. I'm waiting until some friends come to visit, so if anyone wants to join in the festivities, just call me up or something. It should be near the end of the month.
I can't wait.