In The Light Of The Past
"It has shown me that everything is illuminated in the light of the past. It is always along the side of us...on the inside, looking out. "
- Jonathan Safran Foer
This is my mid-year resolution.
The past will no longer be my dictator.
I will not bend to fit the expectations what once were allowed to treat me as a marionette.
I will not weep over the loss of you.
I will not use you to quench my longings.
I will not call on you again other than to remind me that my memory of you is inaccurate at best, delusional at worst.
You exist as a collection, a book of occurrences, a museum with a curator who has moved on.
I need you only to exist, for I won't visit for the same reasons anymore.
Only for memory's sake, not for mourning of what never existed.
[thanks for bearing with me]