i always thought my heart was bullet proof...

[head_noise]

it's getting hard to hold certain feelings back.
especially my anger.
i can feel it building up in me.
and it takes me a lot to control it.
i could control it so easily before.
could suck it down and that would be the end.
now, now it gets to a point where i try to swollow it, but it just gets stuck in my throat.

and when people talk to me, i can't help but not care for their words anymore.
i can't believe one fucking thing that spits out of their mouths.
and it makes me nervous and sick.
i've never felt this way before.
i don't know how to deal with all this.
i look at people, and i can't help but pity them.
pity their meaningless lives.

i feel this frustration in me.
i've felt this for a week.
maybe it's just resentment.

i guess people found a way to break me.
and whatever i am now.
know, it's what you all have created.