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I need something really good to happen to me.. and soon. I'm slipping back into that dark area that I went into during the week of the breakup with Chris... but at least it isnt cause of that this time..lol
I need to find a way to relax but I have no time to even relax! Its maddening. I'm overloaded again, and depressed and shit. Meh. Ya know how they talk about with artists and stuff that they go through a dark period or something, well I'm now in my dark period. The worst thing of all is perhaps this- I'm scaring even myself at how down I am. As I have said before, I was always the one who kept everyone supported and shit, and now I'm collapsing and have no one to support me and I'm just crashing more and more and more with no end in sight. Fuck I cant even get in contact with my life long best friend right now- I've liked called her house like 5 times and left a message and theres been no phone call returned. Dunno WTF is up with her- now I am worried about her and wondering if everything is ok in her home since I knew it wasnt the best situation going on there either.
Hell I've been talking to this one guy lately, the one I went out with, and he is really great but cause I'm still fucked up right now I cant even find myself getting attached and I'm now hurting at the thought of having to tell him that but I dont want to I wanna try and make it work.. but danmnit this blows.
Lifes a bitch, it sucks, and I hate it.
I need to find a way to relax but I have no time to even relax! Its maddening. I'm overloaded again, and depressed and shit. Meh. Ya know how they talk about with artists and stuff that they go through a dark period or something, well I'm now in my dark period. The worst thing of all is perhaps this- I'm scaring even myself at how down I am. As I have said before, I was always the one who kept everyone supported and shit, and now I'm collapsing and have no one to support me and I'm just crashing more and more and more with no end in sight. Fuck I cant even get in contact with my life long best friend right now- I've liked called her house like 5 times and left a message and theres been no phone call returned. Dunno WTF is up with her- now I am worried about her and wondering if everything is ok in her home since I knew it wasnt the best situation going on there either.
Hell I've been talking to this one guy lately, the one I went out with, and he is really great but cause I'm still fucked up right now I cant even find myself getting attached and I'm now hurting at the thought of having to tell him that but I dont want to I wanna try and make it work.. but danmnit this blows.
Lifes a bitch, it sucks, and I hate it.