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My moods have been going kind of weird lately. Last night i saw Josh and i was supposed to cook a NICE dinner for him, but in messing up with the "pudding," i used too much oil, i think. Thus, i didn't have enough for the main course. I fixed macaroni and cheese which i feel sorely about. We talked and sat in the woods for a while. We went from talking to dating now. SO, i guess that's a good thing. I shared a lot of stuff with him last night about how i felt about my past and myself by reading some things i wrote. I feel kind of odd about it now, but i guess that's to be expected considering i rarely do that for very many people. I kind of miss my sister. I don't know why but i feel kind of lonely. I mean, after so long of having no one really genuinely care about me and having no one really want to see who i was, i think i might have found a good thing. It just scares me. I'm actually living and it feels weird. Even if Josh and I don't work out, i know we'll be friends. Ehh. I want it to rain.
On to something else... i feel for Hana so badly right now. She's so scared and i want to cry for her. She's only 15... why couldn't she have seen something like this happening? *sigh* All i can do is try my best to help her out and be there for her.
My cat's eyes are changing colors and it looks really neat. They're semi-blue and semi-green. I want to take a picture of her eyes. I also want to take a picture of Josh's eyes. Josh has amazing eyes.
I've been working on my singing lately. I've also been working on trying to get rid of writer's block and i thought i kicked it last night. I may have, but i can't be too sure yet.
I miss James... he's in Singapore right now and tomorrow he'll be in Bangkok. I'm not sure when he gets home but i wanna hang out with him. :/ Well, i'm gonna go do something else. I don't know what else to say in here. Oh yeah... i'm gonna call the school and see when we get schedules. (Pretend there's elevator music!) Oh yeah... they said, "i think they're planning on mailing them out." THAT HELPS. Yeah... haha. Anyway. I hope we get them soon then. But i'm going to go because i don't have much more to say.
On to something else... i feel for Hana so badly right now. She's so scared and i want to cry for her. She's only 15... why couldn't she have seen something like this happening? *sigh* All i can do is try my best to help her out and be there for her.
My cat's eyes are changing colors and it looks really neat. They're semi-blue and semi-green. I want to take a picture of her eyes. I also want to take a picture of Josh's eyes. Josh has amazing eyes.
I've been working on my singing lately. I've also been working on trying to get rid of writer's block and i thought i kicked it last night. I may have, but i can't be too sure yet.
I miss James... he's in Singapore right now and tomorrow he'll be in Bangkok. I'm not sure when he gets home but i wanna hang out with him. :/ Well, i'm gonna go do something else. I don't know what else to say in here. Oh yeah... i'm gonna call the school and see when we get schedules. (Pretend there's elevator music!) Oh yeah... they said, "i think they're planning on mailing them out." THAT HELPS. Yeah... haha. Anyway. I hope we get them soon then. But i'm going to go because i don't have much more to say.