just thinking about our life

[hazelojos]

I'm happy right now, were happy right now. He's starting to work night today and its gonna suck, somedays he works i wont even see him :-(. I just hope it doesnt effect us, him goin to security already hurt us alot. Were fighting so so much i was sick of it and im sure he was too! I just hope these next 3 months of night check will go by quickly and smoothly. As in no fighting. I sure do hope he stays faithful and doesnt try or even attempt to talk to another girl or cheat. It'll break me more then ever and i will not forgive him. Im tryin so hard to trust him and though i get all nervous when he goes and does things, everyday normal things, i still wonder if he's lying or anything and i hate being like this. I wish i could not even worry about him and trust him to be a good man to mebut i cant right now. I hope oneday i will be able tooo.

Another note everyones getting married these days and it suxs cuz i would like to be but in a way not really, does that make sense? Maybe even be engaged for like a yr or two would be nice. But i guess were not ready for that kinda commitment, oneday.....

You choose to love someone every day, you don't just fall out of love. You work on it every day. You need to make the choice whether you want to love him or not.

Brayden Is my life i love him to death and i am so happy Jeff and i made him. He's is my baby and always will be. I now understand a parents love to their children. Its just so unconditional <3