thought of the day...

[hazeleyedreamer]

heres a thought for all of u deep thinkers out there....PEOPLE WHO SAY UR FRIENDS, OR SAY U R STILL FRIENDS AFTER SUMTHING HAPPENS....BUT THEY PROVE THEMSELVES TOOOOOOTALLY WRONG! why yes, i do kno people like that! thank u for asking u polite dear! it is upsetting, and under those circumstances we are forced to move on, but r we really forced to

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Re: heh...

[hazeleyedreamer]

maybe its just the only excuse they can think of for being a bad friend. isn't it better to cut off that "friendship" completely than to continue on w/ an empty shell of wut once wuz? y would u ignore a friendship just becuz u disagree or its "Annoying"? under that circumstance, if it really bothers u, end it. its more merciful. and i guess i just brought up this topic cuz i thought about all the friends i had that were "great" and then walk away from me when i make one mistake or when i think its time to change some aspect of the relationship. it sux u kno. its funny how almost all of my friendships have been changed/altered or destroyed in the last 6th months....more like, sad. its funny how sum1 will look u in the face and tell u str-8 up, we're best friends, and then they walk away from u. i don't feel as if sum1s ignoring me, i just feel as though it wuz sumthing i had 2 discuss 2 get it out of my head and on to the computer screen. it wuz time 2 take my assorted, jumbled, thoughts and present a sensible idea that everyone can relate to and see themselves in. i don't feel ignored, but sumtimes i guess i feel betrayed.

Re: heh...

[thewrechidsun]

maybe you should check your self. no offense but sometimes i say well, let me call jessi to say whats up. but then i change my mind because sometimes you seem to act like your always right or you give off this vibe that says that your sure of yourself. and its not just me who has said that about you. even way back when we weren't even friends. i dunno. honestly, i'm too busy to talk to anyone and if i've given you that sense of feel that i've betrayed you or turned my back on you then sorry. but i'm just trying to tell you how i feel about us talking. sometimes we'd talk and you'd be like, i'm the shit, i lead the pac, i'm the leader or you always seem to disagree with everything. and thats what made me grow away from you. thats why i never called you or talked to you for those last 2 weeks that we had when we were dating. i was afraid of being fed-up and saying something that i'd regret. when ever you wanna talk you know my home number you could call when ever you want. take care.

Re: heh...

[hazeleyedreamer]

my first reaction when i read this wuz 2 get a little upset, and i could've commented baq 2 u at that moment, we'd probably never speak again, but after re-reading ur comment and reflecting on it, i see things from ur perspective. i don't think im always right or that im superior 2 anyone, but i do have my opinions and i stand by them, as should everyone. if that makes it seem as though i think im better than anyone, so be it...but my intention is not 2 push myself up y bringing others down. if i give off a vibe that im sure of myself, its becuz i am. its called confidence. its not an issue w/ me, but again, its not that im trying 2 pretend that im better than anyone becuz i kno im not. i get self-concious 2, more than people might realize. 2 be perfectly honest, i don't care wut people say or think of me becuz at the end of the day i haffta be happy w/ myself and deal w/ my imperfections alone, but im the only one who has 2 be comfortable in my own skin. if u felt as if i wuz referring 2 u throughout this whole thing, im letting u kno that i thought about u a few times while writing it but it wasn't u specifically. its a generalization. i g2g...but i'll finish later....thanx for commenting.

Re: heh...

[hazeleyedreamer]

but as i wuz saying be4, im sorry if i've given u the wrong impression of myself becuz my intentions are exactly the opposite. about wut people say about me, do u ever really listen 2 wut people say? they talk a lot of crap anyway. u've always seemed the kind of person 2 make up ur own mind and ignore wut others say...u kno...go against the grain. so y should u mention wut others say? y, or how, is it relevant? its not so much that i feel betrayed but i wuz dismayed that u told me, "u still got a best friend in me", and we talked the next day and things were str-8. i've barely heard from u after that. i tried 2 im u once 2 ask u a question and u completely blew me off w/o a thought, though i'd done nuthing 2 upset u (that i kno of). so i've never tried sustaining a friendship for that very reason. sumtimes i feel as if u want nuthing 2 do w/ me, so i grant ur wish and avoid u. i don't think im the shit or anything of the sort and i don't think im the leader of anything. possibly ur referring 2 my comments on that my friends come 2 me for advice and for me 2 plan shit, but i dont think im a leader. if ur referring 2 that, i wuz stating truth. i prefer not 2 lead. and like i said, its not that i disagree w/ everything, but i do have my opinions and if they don't match sum1 elses, 2 bad! im not going 2 agree w/ them for the hell of agreeing. difference makes the world go 'round. u shouldn't have let this push u away. y didn't u ever tell me any of this? if u woulda, maybe i would've thought about it and i woulda tried 2 chill out and maybe we'd be better friends than we are now. maybe wut makes me seem as if i think im superior is the fact that i speak my mind and tell people when i think they're wrong. i just want u 2 realize im nuthing like the person u described, and if u want to continue thinking that, thats fine, but i had 2 say sumthing, so i did. and no, i don't have ur home number any longer. since u have little time 2 call anyone, u can call me on my cell whenever u do have time and then i'll have ur number and i can add it 2 my cell. i deleted it becuz after we talked that one time and u never called baq, i figured i wouldn't be needing it again. so thanx for commenting and for ur opinion and for giving me a good reason to say all the things that had gone unsaid.

Re: heh...

[thewrechidsun]

anytime. look, how about i call u and talk to you about this topic.