Can't Sleep...
It's so late, and I have to wake up in like 2 hours to get all my shit together to drive from UNC to Gainesville, but I just can't sleep...
So here I am, at UNC... I had such a great time. I love all of Alyssa's friends and completely understand why she's so happy all the time=) Love you! Tonight was especially awesome at Avalon: Josh, Alyssa, Hannah, Max, and Ben Yardenay... best dancing buddies ever! Too bad Spring Break 05 went by so quickly. The Tally part was also fun, except I was so exhausted the whole time from school and work, that I barely got off the couch, (except to go on the porch).
Have you ever had anyone hate you? Not like, "bitch, you stole my boyfriend" hate you, like, seriously, intensely, loathe you? It's so weird, because I try so hard to be so passive and accepting, but no matter what, some people will never see you in the right light. I guess it's true how they say you'll never be able to please everyone. It's not really upsetting me, it's just on my mind right now.
Optimism is such a crazy thing. That is what I've learned the past couple of days. My best friend is amazing. She's so full of positive energy that she's become unstoppable. It's the complete opposite of me, but I have so much respect for her. And hopefully I can use it as inspiration. I try to take something out of every situation, although...
Tonight I went iceskating! I can't decide if I should've learned something from it or not. At first I was so scared and hanging onto the wall the whole time. And then people started taking my hand and guiding me around the circle, and I got farther and farther away from the wall. When I saw that there was about a minute left in the session, I made a lap completely by myself. Really it was all about pretending like you had the confidence. Sadly, I don't see how this applies to my life at all right now. If I feigned confidence all the time, I think I would just end up looking stupid. I can see right through people like that.
I'm making less and less sense, and my drive is supposed to start in 3 hours!! lol, riiiigghhttt...
Have a good night!