In My Arms : Chapter four ~ Unwell
Title : In My Arms
Author: Hayley_Cullen
Characters/Pairing: Bella/Edward/Jacob
Rating: 15.
Category: Romance
Spoilers: None.
Disclaimer: Unfortunately, I don’t own any of the characters, it all belongs to the wonderful SMeyer! If I did own Edward, do you really think I would let him out??
Summary: Bella and Edward have been friends forever! They really like each other, and to be honest, its obvious to everyone! Well, except to them. They are destined to be together but why does everything go wrong? All-Human.
Quick Authors Note : Before you read this chapter, I just want you to know, I have changed it so that both flashbacks happened four months ago. Also, this chapter is once again dedicated to twilight_topas, whose Birthday it is today. (14th January) Happy Birthday bb! And so here it is, chapter four. Haven't had time to check this over as I am posting this before I leave for school. When I get back I will check through it. =D Hope you enjoy!
Chapter Four ~ Unwell.
Matchbox Twenty ~ Unwell
I'm not crazy
I'm just a little unwell
I know right now you can't tell
But stay a while and maybe then you'll see
a different side to me
I'm not crazy
I'm just a little impaired
I know right now you don't care
But soon enough you're gonna think of me
And how I used to be.
BPOV
Before I could ask what was so urgent Alice had already hung up on me. I sighed, realising I'm must have been too reliable because she didn't even wait to hear my answer. I threw my cell phone onto the passenger seat before reversing out of the small parking space and drove out of the car park.
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I cut the engine as I parked outside the white mansion. Once the deafening roar of my truck was no longer blocking my ear drums from any other sound, I noticed that it was to quite. It was almost eerie. Normally laughter filled the airwaves around the house. I shook my head. Stop being paranoid. I thought to myself Alice just wants to talk, maybe the rest of her family have gone out.
Why was I feeling so nervous? This house is practically like my second home. I had been here so many times before. I got out of my truck and closed the door behind me. My gaze fell back onto the large white house in front of me. I loved coming to this house. I used to come here everyday. I'd play with Alice and Edward all day until Charlie had to come and drag me home.
What ever Alice was going to say couldn't be that bad. Could it? I shook my head again, trying to shake out that thought. Not everyone is out to hurt you, Bella. I sucked in a deep breath and made my way to the porch.
I pressed the door bell, as I waited nervously for Alice to open the door. I could hear her footsteps reach the door. She greeted me with a wide smile. I immediately relaxed. I felt so stupid for expecting Alice to say something that would hurt me. I felt the urge to smack my forehead. Not everyone is like him.
“What did you want to talk about Alice?” I questioned as we walked towards the living room. She took a seat on the large white couch, patting the seat next to her, I sat where she indicated. She waved her hand, her way of telling me she will get to it later. Her large hazel eyes looked down and widened, a small smile played on her lips.
“Bella, why are you wearing my brothers coat?” I instantly blushed and looked down. I could feel her eyes still on me.
“It was cold.” I mumbled. She laughed. “What did you want to talk about Alice?” I asked, determined to get the subject off of me. Her laughter stopped and her face became serious.
“Bella, are you okay?”
My brow furrowed. “Of course I am, why wouldn't I be?” Confusion lay thick in my voice.
She shook her head, grasping both of my hands. Her eyes looked straight into mine. “I mean, are you really okay?” I stiffened and didn't respond. “I didn't think so,” she mumbled under her breath. I pulled my hands out of hers and look down, seeing nothing. “Bella you don't have to suffer in silence, I am here for you, you know that, right?” I nodded. “Bella, please, just hear me out. Don't block me any more. Please.” I looked up to see her eyes shimmer with tears.
“Alice?” I asked, hesitantly. I hadn't ever seen her cry. She was always too happy and upbeat for tears. She breathed in deeply, trying to control the sobs that threatened to over come her.
“Bella, for two months now I haven't had my best friend. You have been locked up. Because of what that jerk did to you. Do you remember that day Bella?” I looked at her as if she was mad. Of course I remembered that day. “That is not what I meant Bella. I meant do you remember what happened before we saw-” She stopped mid-sentence, worried she may have upset me. I kept my expression neutral. “Do you remember before we drove home?” I racked my brains. But I honestly couldn't remember. I instantly felt guilty. “I didn't think so.” I winced at the hurt that was in her voice.
“Alice, I am sorry.” And I truly was. I was so wrapped up in my hurt, that I didn't even notice how much I had hurt my best girlfriend. A half smile made its way onto her face.
“I understand, honestly I do. But you don't have to suffer in silence. I am here for you Bella.”
“I know Alice. And honestly, it doesn't hurt as much.” Her eyebrow raised, questioning if what I said was true. “Alice, I mean it. Of course, it hurt seeing it. On the day he is supposed to leave on a business trip we see him kissing another girl. Of course that hurt. And yes, it hurt when I gave him my engagement ring back. Yes it hurt, but.” I stopped to take in a deep breath. “He isn't worth it.”
Alice squealed, pulling me into a tight hug. “I am so proud of you.” She whispered into my ear. I laughed and pulled back.
“You should have called me over before Alice, if you were missing me.” A guilty expression crossed her face. “Alice?”
“That wasn't the only reason I called you over.” She look down at her hands. “I called you over to talk to you about Edward.” Her words didn't make any sense to me. My eyebrows pulled together in confusion.
“What about him?” Alice gaze lifted to meet mine, and for the second time today, the second time I had ever seen, her eyes were glistening with tears.
“Bella, it was hard to loose you two months ago, but to loose my brother as well.” Her voice broke twice. She sucked in a deep breath. “Have you noticed that in the last four months he has changed?” Like he isn't in that body at all?”
“Like he is dead inside.” I whispered.
“Exactly.” Alice mumbled. Her gaze fell back to her lap. It was only then, seeing her so fragile, did I realise how much pain she was in. She had lost the two people she felt closest to, apart from Jasper. “How can I help?” I was determined to help, to finally put Alice out of this misery.
“Bella, how do you feel about Edward?” She said suddenly, her eyes now clear of tears. I blushed, instantly looking down.
“How do you mean?” I questioned, refusing to meet her gaze.
“Are you purposely being dumb, Bella?” My head shot up.
“Excuse me?” Alice huffed. Then she became very serious again, taking my hands into hers, staring straight at me again.
“I know you both are best friends but I want to know, do you feel anything deeper for him?” The blush covered my whole face this time. I shrugged, looking down once again. Alice sighed deeply. I could feel her eyes burning into my skull. I met her gaze and she squealed. “I knew it!”
“You knew it before I could even admit it to myself, Alice.” I mumbled. Alice's expression turned smug.
“You are just easy to read, Bella. But anyway. Are you in love with Edward?” As the blush deepened, Alice knew the answer. “I am going to take that as a yes.”
“Did you just ask me to come over just to make fun of me?” I quizzed, raising my eyebrow. Alice laughed.
“Of course not Bella.”
“Alice, what do you want from me?” I asked, exasperated.
“You need to tell Edward!” My eyes widened.
“Are you insane?! I can't tell him that! That would completely ruin our friendship!” I ranted, throwing my hands into the air. Alice face held nothing but confusion.
“Why?”
“Because he doesn't feel the same.” Alice groaned, running her hand down her face, completely exasperated.
“Of course he does Bella!” She stood up, staring me down. I rose up too.
“Why would he, Alice?” I challenged. Alice groaned and placed her hands on either side of my head.
“Because you are gorgeous, you are smart, you are amazing, you are perfect, Bella! Please, and I mean this in the nicest way possible, get that through your thick skull!”
“Whatever, Alice. Your just biased.” I mumbled, pulling her hands off of my face.
“Edward loves you Bella! Do you want to know why he has been so depressed over the last four months?” She took my silence as a yes. “ Because four months ago you and Jacob started dating!”
“Well, if that is true, then why didn't he say anything after Jacob left?”
“Because he is just as insecure as you are Bella!”
“I don't know Alice.” I still couldn't believe what she was telling me. Why would someone like Edward love me? Alice groaned again.
“Would you believe it if Edward told you himself?”
“Maybe but-” The ringing of Alice's home phone cut me off. She huffed but ran off to answer it.
“Oh, hi Charlie.” Hearing my dad's name made me realise I hadn't told him I would be going out. I walked towards Alice. “Charlie...its okay.... Bella's here.... I'll put her on.” Alice held out the phone for me to take. I held my breath, waiting for the rush of anger and worrying mixed into one, Charlie didn't disappoint.
“Bella! Where have you been?! I come home and you weren't here, I tried calling your cell phone but there wasn't an answer. Why didn't you leave me a note-”
“Dad, breath okay?” I said, cutting him off. “I'm sorry, I had to pop out, I went to the park and then to Alice's, I left my cell phone in my truck, I didn't leave a note because I didn't expect you back so soon.”
“Okay, just next time, leave a note anyway.” Charlie sighed.
“Sure Dad, I'm going to come home now.”
“Okay Bells, see you.”
“Bye Dad.” I pressed the end button and handed the phone back to Alice. “Sorry Al, you know what Charlie is like.” Alice chuckled.
“Its fine, don't worry.”
“Okay, well I best go now.” I said, already walking towards the door. I could hear Alice's footsteps behind me. As I made it to her door, I turned. Alice jumped me, wrapping her arms around my waist.
“It's good to have you back.” She mumbled, against my shoulder.
“It's good to be back.” I mumbled, squeezing tighter. After another five seconds, I pulled out of the hug, turning back to the door. I turned the handle to open it, stepping through it and walked down the concrete steps.
“Bella, will you be at home tomorrow?” She called from behind me, I looked over my shoulder.
“Of course, why?”
“Oh, no reason.” She said quickly, darting into the house, closing the door behind her. I suddenly couldn't wait to get home. So much had happened today that I just wanted to go to bed. I noticed then how dark it had become.
A smile played across my face. If what Alice had said was true, maybe Edward and I could finally be together. My smile widened as I thought about us together. Bella Black didn't sound right. Bella Cullen. Now that was perfect.
Chapter Five
Author Note : Hope you liked it, I'm not sure abouit this chapter, but I dunno.
Does anyone remember that I said I sent of my college application? I have my interview on the 23rd! Scary!
Anyway, as always, comments are <3