LIFE
I DECIDED TO WRITE IN HERE AS I SIT AND WAIT FOR RYLAND TO GET UP. I READ MY LAST ENTRY AND REALIZED IT WAS ALMOST EXACTLY A YEAR AGO THE LAST TIME I WROTE IN HERE AND BOY ALOT HAS CHANGED! BELLA WILL BE TWO IN FRIDAY. I REALLY JUST CANT BELIEVE IT SHES GETTING SOOO BIG. I'M THINKING OF MOVING HER TO A PRESCHOOL SO SHE CAN START TO HAVE THE EDUCATIONAL EXPERIENCE. I FINISHED MY FIRST YEAR OF NURSING SCHOOL AND I HAVE ONE LEFT TO GO. THE 2D SEMESTER WAS PRETTY HARD. ITS REALLY AGGRAVTING TO STUDY AND KNOW ALL OF YOU NOTES AND SOMEHOW THEY STILL FIND AWAY TO ASK YOU THINGS THAT YOU HAVE NEVER HEARD OF! BUT I PASSED AND SOMEHOE EVEN MANAGED TO GET A B! SO I GUESS I CANT COMPLAIN. ME AND PAUL BROKE UP. I LEFT HIM IN NOVEMEBER RIGHT BEFORE THANKSGIVING. THINGS JUST WERENT GOOD AND IWASNT REALLY HAPPY. THE LAST YEAR THAT WE LIVED TOGETHER IT WAS LIKE WE WERENT EVEN DATING. I HAVE A NEW BOYFREIND NOW BUT ITS STILL A HARD ADJUSTMENT. ITS HARD TO DATE SOMEONE NEW WHEN YOUR SOO USED TO SOMEONE ELSE. I FIND MYSELF GETTING ANNOYED VERY EASILY. BUT OVERALL HES A REALLY GOOD GUY AND HAS GOALS AND WANTS TO GO SOMEWHERE IN LIFE UNLIKE PAUL. WHICH IS A BIG REASON WHY I LEFT IN THE FIRST PLACE. PAUL ALSO HAS A NEW GIRLFRIEND AND ITS BEEN VERY HARD FOR ME TO ACCEPT. SHES NOT GOOD ENOUGH FOR HIM AND SHES VERY UGLY AND A LITTLE OVERWEIGHT. I KNOW IT REALLY HURT HIM WHEN I LEFT AND THAT HAVING SOMEONE ELSE MAKES IT EASIER TO MOVE ON BUT I JUST THINK THAT HE IS SETTELING AND HE CAN DO ALOT BETTER. SHES ALSO HAS A KID WHICH I DONT LIKE. I DONT WANT BELLA GETTTING CLOSE TO THIS LITTLE GIRL AND HTEN WHEN THEY BREAK UP HER NOT UNDERSTAND WHY SHE CANT SEE HER FRIEND ANYMORE. I DONT KNOW EVEN THOUGH ALL OF THIS IS HARD IT WILL BE FOR THE BEST IN THE END. IT JUST SUCKS THAT BELLA WONT HAVE A TRADITIONAL REGULAR FAMILY.