Disconnected
I dont really know what is going on inside my head. Im at the point now where I feel if I stop looking at whats going on around me everything is gonna change again... cause everytime I turn around something is either gone or not where I needed it to be...
So I put on my façade, I pretend nothing is wrong again.... Im just so tired of trying... Im tired of having all the answer or not knowing anything at all... I dont wanna be so extreme anymore in my life... I wanna find a happy middle... I wanna stop hurting... I dont wanna be so angry... or unhappy... or selfish... and yet at the same time I dont give a shit...
I just need to take some time to myself and figure out whats going on inside my head.... I just dont know if I have that much time...
To Meg: everything is gonna be ok... karma will get that stupid son of bitch... and until then, please dont rule me out as a friend... seriously... Im here...
To the rest of the those who read this entry.... everything happens for a reason... you dont have to understand why... just understand why you feel the way you do and try to be happy with who you are... and if that made sense to you... youre as out of it as I am....
- Hayden
"Everytime I try to see myself in my reflection
All I see is someone else there's no connection
Sometimes I feel Im by myself Im isolated
Sometimes I feel there's no one else, Im disconnected
Yeah everything's all wrong... but it's alright"
Disconnected by Me
So I put on my façade, I pretend nothing is wrong again.... Im just so tired of trying... Im tired of having all the answer or not knowing anything at all... I dont wanna be so extreme anymore in my life... I wanna find a happy middle... I wanna stop hurting... I dont wanna be so angry... or unhappy... or selfish... and yet at the same time I dont give a shit...
I just need to take some time to myself and figure out whats going on inside my head.... I just dont know if I have that much time...
To Meg: everything is gonna be ok... karma will get that stupid son of bitch... and until then, please dont rule me out as a friend... seriously... Im here...
To the rest of the those who read this entry.... everything happens for a reason... you dont have to understand why... just understand why you feel the way you do and try to be happy with who you are... and if that made sense to you... youre as out of it as I am....
- Hayden
"Everytime I try to see myself in my reflection
All I see is someone else there's no connection
Sometimes I feel Im by myself Im isolated
Sometimes I feel there's no one else, Im disconnected
Yeah everything's all wrong... but it's alright"
Disconnected by Me