Complicated....
It seems that you cant get away from that word can you... cause it happens on a daily bases.
And Suddenly... things get better... and worse... its like life isnt allowed to give you a notice...
Meaghan has told me that she is backing off... she feels my life is "complicated" enough and she doesnt wanna ruin it or add to it. So because of circumstances that have gone on in my life... Ive lost my chance to get her back... after 3 yearsthe one thing that I hoped for... I lost it.. because of me.... But she is in my life... so I cant complain... I just wish there was something I could say to make her feel better about herself... maybe at one time there was... but Im afriad I missed it...
The girl that I knew was "over before it began" started seeming like she was coming around... but I realize now after being a little mislead that I was seeing what I wanted to.. I should have seen it coming .... the other night she finally laid it all out on the table. And even though I knew it was gonna hurt... I wasnt ready for it... and that made it hurt even worse...
There is someone else... isnt there always though... she is a girl that I care about alot... she asked if the next time she sees me if she can kiss me... that shocked me... but of course my answer was yes... I just dont wanna ruin anything else in my life right now...
I miss my mom... I miss my old friends... I miss when things were simple... I miss when absolutly nothing could put a smile on my face... I miss not having to miss everything so much...
And what sucks is when you are going through life and you see someone hurting or upset and you cant relate... and there is that feeling of a happy selfishness cause you dont have to go through it too... and then one day... it comes back to bite you in the ass.... and you feel it too... and it hurts so sweetly... you find yourself smiling while the tears pour out of you seemingly endless...
Im a little lost... and a little lonely.... and Im afriad to open my eyes right now in fear that I'll see whats in my mind is true....
- Hayden
And Suddenly... things get better... and worse... its like life isnt allowed to give you a notice...
Meaghan has told me that she is backing off... she feels my life is "complicated" enough and she doesnt wanna ruin it or add to it. So because of circumstances that have gone on in my life... Ive lost my chance to get her back... after 3 yearsthe one thing that I hoped for... I lost it.. because of me.... But she is in my life... so I cant complain... I just wish there was something I could say to make her feel better about herself... maybe at one time there was... but Im afriad I missed it...
The girl that I knew was "over before it began" started seeming like she was coming around... but I realize now after being a little mislead that I was seeing what I wanted to.. I should have seen it coming .... the other night she finally laid it all out on the table. And even though I knew it was gonna hurt... I wasnt ready for it... and that made it hurt even worse...
There is someone else... isnt there always though... she is a girl that I care about alot... she asked if the next time she sees me if she can kiss me... that shocked me... but of course my answer was yes... I just dont wanna ruin anything else in my life right now...
I miss my mom... I miss my old friends... I miss when things were simple... I miss when absolutly nothing could put a smile on my face... I miss not having to miss everything so much...
And what sucks is when you are going through life and you see someone hurting or upset and you cant relate... and there is that feeling of a happy selfishness cause you dont have to go through it too... and then one day... it comes back to bite you in the ass.... and you feel it too... and it hurts so sweetly... you find yourself smiling while the tears pour out of you seemingly endless...
Im a little lost... and a little lonely.... and Im afriad to open my eyes right now in fear that I'll see whats in my mind is true....
- Hayden