Today
I had a wonderful day...though my parents were slow as hell and didn't manage to get me to Kaela's house until about 3:40. Honestly, I can't be truly angry at them for all they've done...but they still kinda screwed me over, and I can't help being a little upset. Anyway, now I feel really bad. I had a wonderful time with Kaela...one I'll never forget and hold in my heart forever. I came home afterwords and talked to her on-line, and I had a really good time. But then, all the food I had eaten combined with my workout routine and made me feel really sick, so I said I needed to go. I really hate leaving and saying goodbye. I just want to keep talking...I love it so much. But then...it was like, it never happened. The last few words were something to the likening of, "I love you." "Bye." I'm not mad at all...I know she gets upset with me when I do this...it makes me feel awful. I feel like I'm letting her down, like I failed again. "All you'll ever be is awful," I am constantly reminded of by my own mind. God, I wish I could just talk to her forever...I feel sick.