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heres my entry from my other journal. wrote it like last night/this morning sometime...after midnight...thought the lj peoples would wanna read:)
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quick update. initiation tonight went really well. my mood afterwards went slowly downhill. and now im upset and other stuff...dont wanna get into it.
i totally forgot to mention the drama that happened tonight. with who as the star? karen of course. not my big karen. ex grand big ex sorority sister karen. yeah. the idiot gave herself alcohol poisoning this afternoon. i wanna know why the fuck she was drinking that much in the middle of a sat afternoon anyways...is it obvious how much im over her and her drama yet?? bc i cut her out of my life bc i didnt want to deal with her drama. but i didnt realize how little i care for her until i heard this today. and im sorry if that makes me sound like a bitch, but thats the way it is right now. i didnt have the time or the want, and i still dont, to deal with her. and if she's stupid enough to do that to herself then she needs to learn a lesson. and maybe now she will. and what bugs me more is people who say they dont like her and all this other stuff get all concerned like theyre her best friend. which is kinda understandable, but if you say you really dont like someone then why would you go out of your way to find out everything about them and call and stuff. i dont know. i wouldnt do it...she annoys me. arg. i really wish she would just kinda disappear from anything that i ever have to hear again. she bugs me bc she always wants to be the center of attention. and no matter what happens, she somehow puts all the attention on herself. she somehow sucks everyone back into paying attention to her and only caring about her. i hate that. i hate people like that, not just her. how selfish. not saying she did this on purpose. bc if she did, she really did deserve it. but i seriosuly doubt someone would give themselves alcohol poisoning...but you never know. anyways, im dont talking about her. hope she learned her fucking lesson. maybe now she'll grow up some...
so its later in the day now...i wrote this entry at like midnight or something. and im still not in the best mood ever. but better than last night. i really miss matt. i want him to come back and hold me and make me feel better. only 6 days left. im excited:) he's making me dinner fri night and we might bake a cake too (bc i wanna) and then have a romantic stay in movie night. and then big party at his parents house sat. then sun is our 1 1/2 year anniversary. yay for us:) i need to see my therapist...i go in on tuesday. i really wanna talk to her. i feel better after sitting there and talking for awhile. it helps. i need money too. and more than anything i wish matt was here right now to hold me while we watch tv...love you baby.
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quick update. initiation tonight went really well. my mood afterwards went slowly downhill. and now im upset and other stuff...dont wanna get into it.
i totally forgot to mention the drama that happened tonight. with who as the star? karen of course. not my big karen. ex grand big ex sorority sister karen. yeah. the idiot gave herself alcohol poisoning this afternoon. i wanna know why the fuck she was drinking that much in the middle of a sat afternoon anyways...is it obvious how much im over her and her drama yet?? bc i cut her out of my life bc i didnt want to deal with her drama. but i didnt realize how little i care for her until i heard this today. and im sorry if that makes me sound like a bitch, but thats the way it is right now. i didnt have the time or the want, and i still dont, to deal with her. and if she's stupid enough to do that to herself then she needs to learn a lesson. and maybe now she will. and what bugs me more is people who say they dont like her and all this other stuff get all concerned like theyre her best friend. which is kinda understandable, but if you say you really dont like someone then why would you go out of your way to find out everything about them and call and stuff. i dont know. i wouldnt do it...she annoys me. arg. i really wish she would just kinda disappear from anything that i ever have to hear again. she bugs me bc she always wants to be the center of attention. and no matter what happens, she somehow puts all the attention on herself. she somehow sucks everyone back into paying attention to her and only caring about her. i hate that. i hate people like that, not just her. how selfish. not saying she did this on purpose. bc if she did, she really did deserve it. but i seriosuly doubt someone would give themselves alcohol poisoning...but you never know. anyways, im dont talking about her. hope she learned her fucking lesson. maybe now she'll grow up some...
so its later in the day now...i wrote this entry at like midnight or something. and im still not in the best mood ever. but better than last night. i really miss matt. i want him to come back and hold me and make me feel better. only 6 days left. im excited:) he's making me dinner fri night and we might bake a cake too (bc i wanna) and then have a romantic stay in movie night. and then big party at his parents house sat. then sun is our 1 1/2 year anniversary. yay for us:) i need to see my therapist...i go in on tuesday. i really wanna talk to her. i feel better after sitting there and talking for awhile. it helps. i need money too. and more than anything i wish matt was here right now to hold me while we watch tv...love you baby.