his one fish
Life goes on after love.... i found this out the hard way.
i am doing fine with not having nathaniel in my life and knowing tht he is doing fine. I realized the hard way that we werent meant to be. saddend and hurt I tried to move on. till this day I struggle witht he fact that i meay never see him again. but i know in my heart he does love me and will always be there for me. it hurts and I cant do nothing but move on. I thought I would never meet anyone that would be able to replace him, or should I say take over for him because I will always have a place in my heart for him no matter what, nathaniel was my first love, hell my only love (true love that is). then I met Don who walked into my life slowly and quietly. We have been hangin out and talking for about 3 months now and i feel closer to him than I have felt to any man in a long time. there was dustin but that is entirely to difficult to talk about, so back to don. He is so kind and loving he sees me for I am and not another peice of ass. He respects my morals and values (most of which we share) he respects me as a woman. that is most important of all. today while on aim I had an awway message up stating that if there were so many fish in the sea than y cant we catch one. he replied to that with: There are many fishes in the sea but i have caught my one. adn later said that it was directed towards me. my heart skipped a beat. he told me that I was the only girl he has talked to that hasnt taken his friendship for advantage and used him adn never bothered to talk to him when they said they would. I am flattered that he has said this about me but at the same time i think what is going on. I think to myself that he is only looking out for himself and he is jus looking for ass but then I remember many talks we have had. to sum up how i feel about myself is How can I love a world, that wont love me!. I told him that and he said you dont need the world to love you all you need are friends and family.....with a long pause of scilence between us both he said adn all you need is me to love you and the world wont matter. i want him I want him bad.
I struggle with the fact that I am loved, with the fact that I am wanted.....
I dont talk to ppl about it. It's my problem but what the hell.
i am doing fine with not having nathaniel in my life and knowing tht he is doing fine. I realized the hard way that we werent meant to be. saddend and hurt I tried to move on. till this day I struggle witht he fact that i meay never see him again. but i know in my heart he does love me and will always be there for me. it hurts and I cant do nothing but move on. I thought I would never meet anyone that would be able to replace him, or should I say take over for him because I will always have a place in my heart for him no matter what, nathaniel was my first love, hell my only love (true love that is). then I met Don who walked into my life slowly and quietly. We have been hangin out and talking for about 3 months now and i feel closer to him than I have felt to any man in a long time. there was dustin but that is entirely to difficult to talk about, so back to don. He is so kind and loving he sees me for I am and not another peice of ass. He respects my morals and values (most of which we share) he respects me as a woman. that is most important of all. today while on aim I had an awway message up stating that if there were so many fish in the sea than y cant we catch one. he replied to that with: There are many fishes in the sea but i have caught my one. adn later said that it was directed towards me. my heart skipped a beat. he told me that I was the only girl he has talked to that hasnt taken his friendship for advantage and used him adn never bothered to talk to him when they said they would. I am flattered that he has said this about me but at the same time i think what is going on. I think to myself that he is only looking out for himself and he is jus looking for ass but then I remember many talks we have had. to sum up how i feel about myself is How can I love a world, that wont love me!. I told him that and he said you dont need the world to love you all you need are friends and family.....with a long pause of scilence between us both he said adn all you need is me to love you and the world wont matter. i want him I want him bad.
I struggle with the fact that I am loved, with the fact that I am wanted.....
I dont talk to ppl about it. It's my problem but what the hell.