OK - you kids think you got it bad...
I do too. But I know it will get better. It has too. When he leaves at 4 Sat afternoon and comes home at 4 Sunday afternoon, well I'm not stupid. It's a shame. I'll bet she doesn't know that he only brushes his teeth once a month if that. Or that he...nevermind. It doesn't make any difference. I deserve better. He keeps telling me this. I'm trying to believe him and myself about that. In the mean time I can't stand to hear him tell me that NOW I should go get what is deserved. All this time...21 years...fuck you alan and the bitch you came out of...or into. I gave, he took and when I couldn't give at the fantastic level he'd come to enjoy, he didn't want me anymore and he covers it up with the kitty-litter idea that it's the best for me and that's yes he's being selfish and doesn't care (actually says that).
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K.
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K.