One last try......
What you are doing isn't right. We all fucking care for you and it's not good enough for you. I've told you so many times that I cant go on doing something that Im not comfortable in or just can't do anymore. I've tried so many times to forgive you for acting up, but there's only so much a human can take.. Im at my limit. Call me a horrible person but this is just what I had to do. Call me selfish, but I cant take being in something im very unhappy with. Everyone is here for you and it's not good enough! WHY? You need to be happy for the people you DO have around that care about you. If I didn't care enough to be your friend, I wouldn't call you every day to see if you're okay. This isn't something that you should end your life with.. It's simply a stupid choice... Im still here for you no matter what you think. IM STILL HERE. You keep telling me to try and I have.. But now, I can't go on putting myself through something im unhappy with. Im sorry. IM SORRY. You shouldn't put us through this shit.. You shouldn't take friendship for granted because it's something great. It's not fair to want me to be in something Im unhappy with and then tell me that your life is in my hands... It's not fucking right. Im doing my best to show you im here for you and it's not good enough.. I dont really want to make this public because it's not between anyone else but ME AND YOU, but this is my last attempt at getting through your head, or stopping you from killing yourself.. Yeah, you say you'll only live if I choose to be with you... that's just not right.. It's not right and you should know it, you shouldn't put anyone in a situation like this.. Not me, brannick, tyler, bridget, eugene, harrison, damion or your family.. NO ONE. That's all. Im trying. Im trying really hard to be a good person.. Really. But me trying to be your friend doesn't count as a good person to you.. So, im sorry. You say I'd rather have you die than be with you again.. I can't believe you could even think that...It's wrong!!!!!!! Please don't kill yourself.. This is my last attempt. It's all I've got......