Settle.
It's much less about pretending now a'days. Everything is happening at once and those of us that are in this fight for ourselves will rise to the top whereas the ones who have yet to figure out their reasons for living will get swept away. I've just got a bunch in my head today, and I wanted to get some of it out, so here I am.
I was talking with one of my favorite co-workers today, and she said something that really shocked me. I had always figured Jocelyn for someone who was really happy, and really driven, and really set on what she's going to get out of life get her happy ending. But I really don't think that she's nearly as happy as I thought. When we were talking about love and emotions and boyfriends, and life and what it all is suppose to be about, she kinda shut down a bit. I really hate that. She could really have anyone she wanted, yet here she is, stuck with this douche bag of a boyfriend that really doesn't treat her how he should, and it's obvious. Someone like her shouldn't ever need to settle on being with someone that is any less than perfect for her. It makes me sad to think that something like that can happen to her. I really don't get it. I don't understand why it is that people that should have more shame than confidence run around and rule the world, when people like Jocelyn, good honest people, get sucked away in the shit storm.
Why is it so hard for us as people just fight for what we want? I don't understand why we just take what we can get sometimes.. It's not fair to anyone to have to be less, when you know you're more. I have been trying to not settle for anything less that exactly what I want for a long time now, and I've been happier as a result of that, I just wish that everyone else would do the same. I think we would all be better off.
We were talking about how sometimes, especially with love, things have to get really bad for you to end up at the end of the rainbow, and how I felt like I haven't really been through enough shit yet. It sucks when I think about it, but I really haven't. I really hope I somehow end up different than everyone else, I probably wont but oh well. At times like this when all anyone can really cling to is hope, I'll be more than happy to just do that. My hope keeps me warm at night, and right now, that's just fine.
I was talking with one of my favorite co-workers today, and she said something that really shocked me. I had always figured Jocelyn for someone who was really happy, and really driven, and really set on what she's going to get out of life get her happy ending. But I really don't think that she's nearly as happy as I thought. When we were talking about love and emotions and boyfriends, and life and what it all is suppose to be about, she kinda shut down a bit. I really hate that. She could really have anyone she wanted, yet here she is, stuck with this douche bag of a boyfriend that really doesn't treat her how he should, and it's obvious. Someone like her shouldn't ever need to settle on being with someone that is any less than perfect for her. It makes me sad to think that something like that can happen to her. I really don't get it. I don't understand why it is that people that should have more shame than confidence run around and rule the world, when people like Jocelyn, good honest people, get sucked away in the shit storm.
Why is it so hard for us as people just fight for what we want? I don't understand why we just take what we can get sometimes.. It's not fair to anyone to have to be less, when you know you're more. I have been trying to not settle for anything less that exactly what I want for a long time now, and I've been happier as a result of that, I just wish that everyone else would do the same. I think we would all be better off.
We were talking about how sometimes, especially with love, things have to get really bad for you to end up at the end of the rainbow, and how I felt like I haven't really been through enough shit yet. It sucks when I think about it, but I really haven't. I really hope I somehow end up different than everyone else, I probably wont but oh well. At times like this when all anyone can really cling to is hope, I'll be more than happy to just do that. My hope keeps me warm at night, and right now, that's just fine.