The end.
I have been in training for 6 months 8 days and today is my last day. When I go to work tomorrow I will not see the people I have gotten used to seeing these past six months, I will see my actual co-workers. I will also be in a new building and I basically feel like I am starting a brand new job. I wasn't really nervous until I went over this afternoon to begin setting up my cube. I was only there for about a half an hour so I really can't gauge anything yet. The building is nicer but the idea of meeting new people always makes me nervous. I realize that when people meet me it's pretty easy for them to tell I'm gay and that bothers me. I still expect people to treat me how I was treated in grade school or high school. I know that no one will call me a fag or spit on me while I am walking thru the hallways of work but that doesn't soothe me. I have always hated meeting new people because of the dreaded "are you gay" question. Why is that your business? Since people can't politely ask that question at work they instead must gossip about you in order to figure it out on their own. Why do you care? My cube is in the "man" aisle, so I have to figure out how to bond with them. Since I didn't grow up with my dad and have always mainly hung out with women, I have a very hard time bonding with men. I never know what to talk about and am always too worried I am making them uncomfortable with my gayness. Why do I care if I am making them uncomfortable, I don't know. I am very happy to be out of training, don't get me wrong, but sometimes change really bothers me. When my T. A. took me to my new dept. she hung out for a minute but then had to get back to work. When she was leaving I felt like I was in kindergarten and my mom was leaving me on the first day. I really liked my T. A. and I hope my new T.A. is evenly remotely as good as her, but I don't think it will happen. I met my new T.A. today and she had on tight black pants and a leopard print silky halter. They say you shouldn't judge a book by it's cover, but...