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[hater1779]

I am not sure what to do. I am asking the lord for help, but I feel as if I am left in the dark. All alone with no type of guidence. I want to do what is right, but I am told all that I do is wrong. I know I cant make everybody happy. All I want is to be a part of my childs life. I cant stand the fact that I had a child with somebody that can be so harsh and cold. She wont let me get close to my child in any way shape or form. I cant go out there and just up and leave all that I have started. But if I dont go soon I will lose my child. I have pushed so many people away that now I have no compaionship to turn to. Trust as become such a big thing that I dont think I can trust anybody around me. This is not a good thing to feel. I dont know how to feel.
I hate the fact that people only hear from me when I have a problem. (like now)
I am 25 and cant stand on my own 2 feet. I feel my life has gone no where.