sorry dont I dont know how to cut
Hater1779nyc [11:26 PM]: hello
nuyoricanangel68 [11:26 PM]: hey
Hater1779nyc [11:27 PM]: did you get my e-mail?
nuyoricanangel68 [11:27 PM]: yup
Hater1779nyc [11:27 PM]: so when can we stop playin games? for her sake?
nuyoricanangel68 [11:27 PM]: what games
nuyoricanangel68 [11:28 PM]: i dont have time for games
Hater1779nyc [11:28 PM]: then lets stop, but you have to realize what you are doing on your part for this to go away
Hater1779nyc [11:28 PM]: i miss my baby
nuyoricanangel68 [11:28 PM]: i bet u do
Hater1779nyc [11:28 PM]: you say you want her to know me
nuyoricanangel68 [11:29 PM]: thats y the phone was off for how long b4 u even figured it out cause u hadnt called her
Hater1779nyc [11:29 PM]: i knew, i was still callin
nuyoricanangel68 [11:29 PM]: right right
Hater1779nyc [11:29 PM]: i still call it just to see if you turned it on
nuyoricanangel68 [11:29 PM]: i believe that i do
nuyoricanangel68 [11:30 PM]: well whatever jaime . u are free to call her as u please on my moms cell. if u wanted to be in contact with her u would be
Hater1779nyc [11:30 PM]: you never gave me the cell #
Hater1779nyc [11:30 PM]: why couldnt you call me from there?
nuyoricanangel68 [11:30 PM]: um she only called u from that number on ur cell phone so shouldnt u have it
Hater1779nyc [11:31 PM]: she never called me from it
nuyoricanangel68 [11:31 PM]: uh yeah she did
Hater1779nyc [11:31 PM]: nope
nuyoricanangel68 [11:31 PM]: last time u spoke to her it was on there
Hater1779nyc [11:31 PM]: i dont have any cell from her
Hater1779nyc [11:31 PM]: nope that was from amy's phone on christmas
nuyoricanangel68 [11:31 PM]: that is my moms cell phone
nuyoricanangel68 [11:31 PM]: hello
Hater1779nyc [11:32 PM]: no it was amy's house, the same # in my mothers phone
Hater1779nyc [11:32 PM]: i cheacked it
nuyoricanangel68 [11:32 PM]: if u think so
nuyoricanangel68 [11:32 PM]: right
nuyoricanangel68 [11:32 PM]: i didnt call u from amys house
nuyoricanangel68 [11:32 PM]: she called from my moms cell
nuyoricanangel68 [11:32 PM]: check it again
Hater1779nyc [11:32 PM]: you think I am lying?
nuyoricanangel68 [11:32 PM]: whatever
nuyoricanangel68 [11:33 PM]: u want to speak to her the number is there
Hater1779nyc [11:33 PM]: i dont have it
nuyoricanangel68 [11:33 PM]: what u erase it?
Hater1779nyc [11:33 PM]: i never had it
Hater1779nyc [11:33 PM]: come stop please
nuyoricanangel68 [11:33 PM]: guess its not that important to u then
nuyoricanangel68 [11:33 PM]: or maybe im just bein crazy
Hater1779nyc [11:34 PM]: Look I am not playing with you right now
nuyoricanangel68 [11:34 PM]: no wait thats what u like to call me to other ppl
Hater1779nyc [11:34 PM]: if I say I dont have it, then I dont have it
nuyoricanangel68 [11:34 PM]: well do u have a call log on ur cell?
nuyoricanangel68 [11:34 PM]: check it
nuyoricanangel68 [11:35 PM]: thats the #
Hater1779nyc [11:35 PM]: yes it is not there
Hater1779nyc [11:35 PM]: that was how long ago?
nuyoricanangel68 [11:35 PM]: the 24th
Hater1779nyc [11:35 PM]: i dont have it,
nuyoricanangel68 [11:35 PM]: 25th?
Hater1779nyc [11:35 PM]: the same way you tell people you dont want it to be like this
Hater1779nyc [11:35 PM]: then lets just stop it
Hater1779nyc [11:35 PM]: right now right here
Hater1779nyc [11:36 PM]: I am telling you I dont want it like this anymore
nuyoricanangel68 [11:36 PM]: start with urself b4 u suggest what i work on
nuyoricanangel68 [11:36 PM]: bullshit
Hater1779nyc [11:36 PM]: V please stop
Hater1779nyc [11:36 PM]: For that little girls sake
Hater1779nyc [11:36 PM]: she is going to pay for this not you or me
Hater1779nyc [11:36 PM]: she will
Hater1779nyc [11:36 PM]: i dont want that to happen
Hater1779nyc [11:37 PM]: I am trying to stop
Hater1779nyc [11:37 PM]: you dont see that
Hater1779nyc [11:37 PM]: didnt you just tell los you want this to end?
Hater1779nyc [11:37 PM]: then lets end it
nuyoricanangel68 [11:37 PM]: u talk to me all nice and shit when im on here actin like u want this shit to be positive then go runnin ur mouth to other ppl about me behind my back and lying on top of that about urself and im pissed
nuyoricanangel68 [11:38 PM]: u dont know anything about what carlos and i speak of
nuyoricanangel68 [11:38 PM]: mind ur business'
Hater1779nyc [11:38 PM]: I just sopke to him
Hater1779nyc [11:38 PM]: I am trying here and you wont let it
nuyoricanangel68 [11:38 PM]: forget u
Hater1779nyc [11:38 PM]: this is going to hurt Mairah!
nuyoricanangel68 [11:38 PM]: u need to seriously grow up
Hater1779nyc [11:38 PM]: I dont want that
Hater1779nyc [11:39 PM]: you can call him and ask him
Hater1779nyc [11:39 PM]: now please I am asking you for her sake
Hater1779nyc [11:39 PM]: I am not playing any gams you think I am
Hater1779nyc [11:40 PM]: I am trying to do what is right for her
nuyoricanangel68 [11:40 PM]: all i ever asked of u was to give a shit about that little girl and not so much about urself and u cant even be a man and do that
Hater1779nyc [11:40 PM]: why cant you see that for her sake?
Hater1779nyc [11:40 PM]: please I am not trying to fight
Hater1779nyc [11:41 PM]: I want it right for her
nuyoricanangel68 [11:41 PM]: like u have tole me b4 u dont even DESERVE to be in her good graces
Hater1779nyc [11:41 PM]: but this is me acting up now?
Hater1779nyc [11:41 PM]: i am asking you to put our shit to the side
Hater1779nyc [11:41 PM]: and you wont
nuyoricanangel68 [11:41 PM]: this is me reacting to the shit u have been talkin while u have been in ny
nuyoricanangel68 [11:42 PM]: what u started
nuyoricanangel68 [11:42 PM]: dont play urself jaime
Hater1779nyc [11:42 PM]: i am not playing anything, you think I am
nuyoricanangel68 [11:42 PM]: and lie again
nuyoricanangel68 [11:42 PM]: lies
nuyoricanangel68 [11:42 PM]: u cant even fuckin tell the truth anymmore
Hater1779nyc [11:42 PM]: call me please
nuyoricanangel68 [11:42 PM]: u wish
Hater1779nyc [11:43 PM]: if you want this to stop then lets stop it
Hater1779nyc [11:43 PM]: please
Hater1779nyc [11:43 PM]: she will suffer
Hater1779nyc [11:43 PM]: not you or i
nuyoricanangel68 [11:43 PM]: i cant even believe u thats y i wont pick up that phone cause its bullshit jaime
Hater1779nyc [11:43 PM]: i want to stop this
nuyoricanangel68 [11:43 PM]: shes better now than she has ever been
Hater1779nyc [11:43 PM]: she can only be better
Hater1779nyc [11:44 PM]: if we stop this all
Hater1779nyc [11:44 PM]: you know that much is true
nuyoricanangel68 [11:44 PM]: then y dont u try telling the truth from now on
Hater1779nyc [11:44 PM]: call me then, and that is how we will start it
Hater1779nyc [11:45 PM]: you have to allow it to happen
Hater1779nyc [11:45 PM]: I dont want her to suffer any more
Hater1779nyc [11:46 PM]: please Vanessa call me, lets end this
Hater1779nyc [11:46 PM]: I am asking you to help me end this
Hater1779nyc [11:48 PM]: Vanessa please give me the # so I can call her
Hater1779nyc [11:49 PM]: how do you feel when she asks abut me?
nuyoricanangel68 [11:49 PM]: ha she doesnt
Hater1779nyc [11:49 PM]: i know you are lying
Hater1779nyc [11:49 PM]: los told me
Hater1779nyc [11:49 PM]: i just spoke to him
nuyoricanangel68 [11:49 PM]: she has asked about u twicw since u have been gone
nuyoricanangel68 [11:49 PM]: twice
Hater1779nyc [11:49 PM]: look at you
Hater1779nyc [11:50 PM]: but it is me?
nuyoricanangel68 [11:50 PM]: im so serious right now
Hater1779nyc [11:50 PM]: i am trying to stop this
nuyoricanangel68 [11:50 PM]: thats what u get
Hater1779nyc [11:50 PM]: i know you are lying, so it dont bother me
Hater1779nyc [11:50 PM]: Vanessa this is stupid please
Hater1779nyc [11:51 PM]: I am telling you i just spoke to los, his phone is dead becasue i killed it for talking so long
nuyoricanangel68 [11:52 PM]: i am not lying to you
nuyoricanangel68 [11:52 PM]: mariah barely asks about u
nuyoricanangel68 [11:53 PM]: she has done so maybe once or twice since she has been here
Hater1779nyc [11:53 PM]: Vanessa who do you think you hurting right now?
nuyoricanangel68 [11:53 PM]: she might mention about things she will show u when u come back home
nuyoricanangel68 [11:53 PM]: but then i tell her that u probably wont come back to live with us
nuyoricanangel68 [11:53 PM]: she says ok
nuyoricanangel68 [11:53 PM]: then moves on
nuyoricanangel68 [11:53 PM]: she asked once y
Hater1779nyc [11:54 PM]: then why would los tell me how much it hurts him when she aks him about me
Hater1779nyc [11:54 PM]: about when I am coming back
Hater1779nyc [11:54 PM]: you not hurting me Vanessa
nuyoricanangel68 [11:54 PM]: i said thats where u needed to be right now . she said ohhh thats ok
nuyoricanangel68 [11:54 PM]: what if he forgets about me
nuyoricanangel68 [11:54 PM]: or what if i forget about him
Hater1779nyc [11:54 PM]: this will only hurt Mariah in the long run dont you see that
nuyoricanangel68 [11:54 PM]: i said that couldnt happen if u loved someone
nuyoricanangel68 [11:55 PM]: she was ok with that
nuyoricanangel68 [11:55 PM]: said ill never see him again
Hater1779nyc [11:55 PM]: she is 4 of cousre she is ok with that
nuyoricanangel68 [11:55 PM]: i told her no
nuyoricanangel68 [11:55 PM]: shed see u from time to time
nuyoricanangel68 [11:55 PM]: then she moved on
nuyoricanangel68 [11:55 PM]: havent talked bout it since
nuyoricanangel68 [11:55 PM]: i dont lie like u do
Hater1779nyc [11:56 PM]: I am not botherd by this, this will hurt he when she wants to know why other kids have a family that you wont let her have right now
nuyoricanangel68 [11:56 PM]: right
nuyoricanangel68 [11:56 PM]: u belive that
nuyoricanangel68 [11:56 PM]: im goin to bed
Hater1779nyc [11:56 PM]: did you call him and see that his phone is busy?
nuyoricanangel68 [11:56 PM]: u have a nice night
Hater1779nyc [11:57 PM]: tell her i love her
Hater1779nyc [11:57 PM]: and that I miss her
nuyoricanangel68 signed off at 11:57 PM
This is what I go through with my life. It is put on me that I am the reason that Mariah does not have a father. I cant do what I need to to provide a better life for my child. I am told she dont miss me? I Just had a long convo with Los (her godfather still in FL)
I am so lost right now, I pray that god will led me in the right direction. I dont know who I can trust. I dont feel like I can trust anybody. I cant help that she is going to take my baby from me. Even more then she already has. Every month I lose a little more contact with her. Next thing she wont know who I am anymore. I did talk to Los for a long time about everything that is going down. I dont know what to do. I am just so lost.
nuyoricanangel68 [11:26 PM]: hey
Hater1779nyc [11:27 PM]: did you get my e-mail?
nuyoricanangel68 [11:27 PM]: yup
Hater1779nyc [11:27 PM]: so when can we stop playin games? for her sake?
nuyoricanangel68 [11:27 PM]: what games
nuyoricanangel68 [11:28 PM]: i dont have time for games
Hater1779nyc [11:28 PM]: then lets stop, but you have to realize what you are doing on your part for this to go away
Hater1779nyc [11:28 PM]: i miss my baby
nuyoricanangel68 [11:28 PM]: i bet u do
Hater1779nyc [11:28 PM]: you say you want her to know me
nuyoricanangel68 [11:29 PM]: thats y the phone was off for how long b4 u even figured it out cause u hadnt called her
Hater1779nyc [11:29 PM]: i knew, i was still callin
nuyoricanangel68 [11:29 PM]: right right
Hater1779nyc [11:29 PM]: i still call it just to see if you turned it on
nuyoricanangel68 [11:29 PM]: i believe that i do
nuyoricanangel68 [11:30 PM]: well whatever jaime . u are free to call her as u please on my moms cell. if u wanted to be in contact with her u would be
Hater1779nyc [11:30 PM]: you never gave me the cell #
Hater1779nyc [11:30 PM]: why couldnt you call me from there?
nuyoricanangel68 [11:30 PM]: um she only called u from that number on ur cell phone so shouldnt u have it
Hater1779nyc [11:31 PM]: she never called me from it
nuyoricanangel68 [11:31 PM]: uh yeah she did
Hater1779nyc [11:31 PM]: nope
nuyoricanangel68 [11:31 PM]: last time u spoke to her it was on there
Hater1779nyc [11:31 PM]: i dont have any cell from her
Hater1779nyc [11:31 PM]: nope that was from amy's phone on christmas
nuyoricanangel68 [11:31 PM]: that is my moms cell phone
nuyoricanangel68 [11:31 PM]: hello
Hater1779nyc [11:32 PM]: no it was amy's house, the same # in my mothers phone
Hater1779nyc [11:32 PM]: i cheacked it
nuyoricanangel68 [11:32 PM]: if u think so
nuyoricanangel68 [11:32 PM]: right
nuyoricanangel68 [11:32 PM]: i didnt call u from amys house
nuyoricanangel68 [11:32 PM]: she called from my moms cell
nuyoricanangel68 [11:32 PM]: check it again
Hater1779nyc [11:32 PM]: you think I am lying?
nuyoricanangel68 [11:32 PM]: whatever
nuyoricanangel68 [11:33 PM]: u want to speak to her the number is there
Hater1779nyc [11:33 PM]: i dont have it
nuyoricanangel68 [11:33 PM]: what u erase it?
Hater1779nyc [11:33 PM]: i never had it
Hater1779nyc [11:33 PM]: come stop please
nuyoricanangel68 [11:33 PM]: guess its not that important to u then
nuyoricanangel68 [11:33 PM]: or maybe im just bein crazy
Hater1779nyc [11:34 PM]: Look I am not playing with you right now
nuyoricanangel68 [11:34 PM]: no wait thats what u like to call me to other ppl
Hater1779nyc [11:34 PM]: if I say I dont have it, then I dont have it
nuyoricanangel68 [11:34 PM]: well do u have a call log on ur cell?
nuyoricanangel68 [11:34 PM]: check it
nuyoricanangel68 [11:35 PM]: thats the #
Hater1779nyc [11:35 PM]: yes it is not there
Hater1779nyc [11:35 PM]: that was how long ago?
nuyoricanangel68 [11:35 PM]: the 24th
Hater1779nyc [11:35 PM]: i dont have it,
nuyoricanangel68 [11:35 PM]: 25th?
Hater1779nyc [11:35 PM]: the same way you tell people you dont want it to be like this
Hater1779nyc [11:35 PM]: then lets just stop it
Hater1779nyc [11:35 PM]: right now right here
Hater1779nyc [11:36 PM]: I am telling you I dont want it like this anymore
nuyoricanangel68 [11:36 PM]: start with urself b4 u suggest what i work on
nuyoricanangel68 [11:36 PM]: bullshit
Hater1779nyc [11:36 PM]: V please stop
Hater1779nyc [11:36 PM]: For that little girls sake
Hater1779nyc [11:36 PM]: she is going to pay for this not you or me
Hater1779nyc [11:36 PM]: she will
Hater1779nyc [11:36 PM]: i dont want that to happen
Hater1779nyc [11:37 PM]: I am trying to stop
Hater1779nyc [11:37 PM]: you dont see that
Hater1779nyc [11:37 PM]: didnt you just tell los you want this to end?
Hater1779nyc [11:37 PM]: then lets end it
nuyoricanangel68 [11:37 PM]: u talk to me all nice and shit when im on here actin like u want this shit to be positive then go runnin ur mouth to other ppl about me behind my back and lying on top of that about urself and im pissed
nuyoricanangel68 [11:38 PM]: u dont know anything about what carlos and i speak of
nuyoricanangel68 [11:38 PM]: mind ur business'
Hater1779nyc [11:38 PM]: I just sopke to him
Hater1779nyc [11:38 PM]: I am trying here and you wont let it
nuyoricanangel68 [11:38 PM]: forget u
Hater1779nyc [11:38 PM]: this is going to hurt Mairah!
nuyoricanangel68 [11:38 PM]: u need to seriously grow up
Hater1779nyc [11:38 PM]: I dont want that
Hater1779nyc [11:39 PM]: you can call him and ask him
Hater1779nyc [11:39 PM]: now please I am asking you for her sake
Hater1779nyc [11:39 PM]: I am not playing any gams you think I am
Hater1779nyc [11:40 PM]: I am trying to do what is right for her
nuyoricanangel68 [11:40 PM]: all i ever asked of u was to give a shit about that little girl and not so much about urself and u cant even be a man and do that
Hater1779nyc [11:40 PM]: why cant you see that for her sake?
Hater1779nyc [11:40 PM]: please I am not trying to fight
Hater1779nyc [11:41 PM]: I want it right for her
nuyoricanangel68 [11:41 PM]: like u have tole me b4 u dont even DESERVE to be in her good graces
Hater1779nyc [11:41 PM]: but this is me acting up now?
Hater1779nyc [11:41 PM]: i am asking you to put our shit to the side
Hater1779nyc [11:41 PM]: and you wont
nuyoricanangel68 [11:41 PM]: this is me reacting to the shit u have been talkin while u have been in ny
nuyoricanangel68 [11:42 PM]: what u started
nuyoricanangel68 [11:42 PM]: dont play urself jaime
Hater1779nyc [11:42 PM]: i am not playing anything, you think I am
nuyoricanangel68 [11:42 PM]: and lie again
nuyoricanangel68 [11:42 PM]: lies
nuyoricanangel68 [11:42 PM]: u cant even fuckin tell the truth anymmore
Hater1779nyc [11:42 PM]: call me please
nuyoricanangel68 [11:42 PM]: u wish
Hater1779nyc [11:43 PM]: if you want this to stop then lets stop it
Hater1779nyc [11:43 PM]: please
Hater1779nyc [11:43 PM]: she will suffer
Hater1779nyc [11:43 PM]: not you or i
nuyoricanangel68 [11:43 PM]: i cant even believe u thats y i wont pick up that phone cause its bullshit jaime
Hater1779nyc [11:43 PM]: i want to stop this
nuyoricanangel68 [11:43 PM]: shes better now than she has ever been
Hater1779nyc [11:43 PM]: she can only be better
Hater1779nyc [11:44 PM]: if we stop this all
Hater1779nyc [11:44 PM]: you know that much is true
nuyoricanangel68 [11:44 PM]: then y dont u try telling the truth from now on
Hater1779nyc [11:44 PM]: call me then, and that is how we will start it
Hater1779nyc [11:45 PM]: you have to allow it to happen
Hater1779nyc [11:45 PM]: I dont want her to suffer any more
Hater1779nyc [11:46 PM]: please Vanessa call me, lets end this
Hater1779nyc [11:46 PM]: I am asking you to help me end this
Hater1779nyc [11:48 PM]: Vanessa please give me the # so I can call her
Hater1779nyc [11:49 PM]: how do you feel when she asks abut me?
nuyoricanangel68 [11:49 PM]: ha she doesnt
Hater1779nyc [11:49 PM]: i know you are lying
Hater1779nyc [11:49 PM]: los told me
Hater1779nyc [11:49 PM]: i just spoke to him
nuyoricanangel68 [11:49 PM]: she has asked about u twicw since u have been gone
nuyoricanangel68 [11:49 PM]: twice
Hater1779nyc [11:49 PM]: look at you
Hater1779nyc [11:50 PM]: but it is me?
nuyoricanangel68 [11:50 PM]: im so serious right now
Hater1779nyc [11:50 PM]: i am trying to stop this
nuyoricanangel68 [11:50 PM]: thats what u get
Hater1779nyc [11:50 PM]: i know you are lying, so it dont bother me
Hater1779nyc [11:50 PM]: Vanessa this is stupid please
Hater1779nyc [11:51 PM]: I am telling you i just spoke to los, his phone is dead becasue i killed it for talking so long
nuyoricanangel68 [11:52 PM]: i am not lying to you
nuyoricanangel68 [11:52 PM]: mariah barely asks about u
nuyoricanangel68 [11:53 PM]: she has done so maybe once or twice since she has been here
Hater1779nyc [11:53 PM]: Vanessa who do you think you hurting right now?
nuyoricanangel68 [11:53 PM]: she might mention about things she will show u when u come back home
nuyoricanangel68 [11:53 PM]: but then i tell her that u probably wont come back to live with us
nuyoricanangel68 [11:53 PM]: she says ok
nuyoricanangel68 [11:53 PM]: then moves on
nuyoricanangel68 [11:53 PM]: she asked once y
Hater1779nyc [11:54 PM]: then why would los tell me how much it hurts him when she aks him about me
Hater1779nyc [11:54 PM]: about when I am coming back
Hater1779nyc [11:54 PM]: you not hurting me Vanessa
nuyoricanangel68 [11:54 PM]: i said thats where u needed to be right now . she said ohhh thats ok
nuyoricanangel68 [11:54 PM]: what if he forgets about me
nuyoricanangel68 [11:54 PM]: or what if i forget about him
Hater1779nyc [11:54 PM]: this will only hurt Mariah in the long run dont you see that
nuyoricanangel68 [11:54 PM]: i said that couldnt happen if u loved someone
nuyoricanangel68 [11:55 PM]: she was ok with that
nuyoricanangel68 [11:55 PM]: said ill never see him again
Hater1779nyc [11:55 PM]: she is 4 of cousre she is ok with that
nuyoricanangel68 [11:55 PM]: i told her no
nuyoricanangel68 [11:55 PM]: shed see u from time to time
nuyoricanangel68 [11:55 PM]: then she moved on
nuyoricanangel68 [11:55 PM]: havent talked bout it since
nuyoricanangel68 [11:55 PM]: i dont lie like u do
Hater1779nyc [11:56 PM]: I am not botherd by this, this will hurt he when she wants to know why other kids have a family that you wont let her have right now
nuyoricanangel68 [11:56 PM]: right
nuyoricanangel68 [11:56 PM]: u belive that
nuyoricanangel68 [11:56 PM]: im goin to bed
Hater1779nyc [11:56 PM]: did you call him and see that his phone is busy?
nuyoricanangel68 [11:56 PM]: u have a nice night
Hater1779nyc [11:57 PM]: tell her i love her
Hater1779nyc [11:57 PM]: and that I miss her
nuyoricanangel68 signed off at 11:57 PM
This is what I go through with my life. It is put on me that I am the reason that Mariah does not have a father. I cant do what I need to to provide a better life for my child. I am told she dont miss me? I Just had a long convo with Los (her godfather still in FL)
I am so lost right now, I pray that god will led me in the right direction. I dont know who I can trust. I dont feel like I can trust anybody. I cant help that she is going to take my baby from me. Even more then she already has. Every month I lose a little more contact with her. Next thing she wont know who I am anymore. I did talk to Los for a long time about everything that is going down. I dont know what to do. I am just so lost.