aha. i think i've firuged it out
i've been trying to think of one thing at a time, to focus on one thing at a time.
that's just not how my brain works.
i have to have other things available to switch between at will. i have to continuously branch into new things.
i'm totally a wood element.
lay waste to an area. create flat fertile ground. (organization mode)
plant a few seeds, grow a bit.
branch off into all remotely interesting paths.
work on all branches at once.
i just can't focus unless i have 5 fractally organized things to focus on.
and i feel so fucking stupid and proley for not realizing this sooner. it's so obvious to me, but it's so against the system that i hadn't thought of actually doing it. i've thought of trying to do it, certainly, but i've never thought of a way to actually do it.
that's just not how my brain works.
i have to have other things available to switch between at will. i have to continuously branch into new things.
i'm totally a wood element.
lay waste to an area. create flat fertile ground. (organization mode)
plant a few seeds, grow a bit.
branch off into all remotely interesting paths.
work on all branches at once.
i just can't focus unless i have 5 fractally organized things to focus on.
and i feel so fucking stupid and proley for not realizing this sooner. it's so obvious to me, but it's so against the system that i hadn't thought of actually doing it. i've thought of trying to do it, certainly, but i've never thought of a way to actually do it.