HIIIIIII World!
I just wanted to announce that I am, in fact, alive.
Wow has it been a rough year. I'm doing much better than I was last post, at least. For a good while I just couldn't tolerate being alone for a heartbeat. I keep having suspicions that the birth control I was on was actually a huge culprit in how bad I felt. I've been off of it 3 months now, and magically I'm able to deal with life again. Turns out the old stuff was giving me the highest dose of hormones I could possibly get...and I dunno, I kind of debate if I should speak up about its effects on me, because it was the most hellish experience of my life.
I'm contently single, and when I get down about being alone, I remind myself "At least I don't have to deal with Tyler!" Who was the guy I dated for about 5 months before losing my cool. I ended it a little after he brought over 3 garbage bags full of laundry for me to wash for him and chastised me when I expressed shock and concern over him expecting me to spend the time and bump up my electric bill to wash all that. I should have left him the first time he got antsy and almost left me at a restaurant (one that was 100 yards from his house) because he was going to be 5 minutes late for his WoW raid. Or the times he critiqued me and complained about my inefficient foot/shoulder massage skills. Or insisted on keeping me up until 4 AM watching movies when I had class at 8 AM (literally barricaded me on the couch and whined if I left). Oh dear GOD it was awful, but you know, maybe it's what I needed to teach me it's really, REALLY ok to be by myself.
I'm trying to move to Atlanta in September/October. I'm working on getting a job here to support that venture, since I just found out my mom won't be helping me out for the first month or so like I'd expected. Soooo....in the event that I don't manage to get a job in my very short time frame for saving money, my Zaoll will officially be for sale for $400, and I still have my Leeke World Hero head and my Dollga Noella head for sale right now.
Ok, my venting and greetings are complete! Now I've got a lot of doll stuff to catch up on.....
Wow has it been a rough year. I'm doing much better than I was last post, at least. For a good while I just couldn't tolerate being alone for a heartbeat. I keep having suspicions that the birth control I was on was actually a huge culprit in how bad I felt. I've been off of it 3 months now, and magically I'm able to deal with life again. Turns out the old stuff was giving me the highest dose of hormones I could possibly get...and I dunno, I kind of debate if I should speak up about its effects on me, because it was the most hellish experience of my life.
I'm contently single, and when I get down about being alone, I remind myself "At least I don't have to deal with Tyler!" Who was the guy I dated for about 5 months before losing my cool. I ended it a little after he brought over 3 garbage bags full of laundry for me to wash for him and chastised me when I expressed shock and concern over him expecting me to spend the time and bump up my electric bill to wash all that. I should have left him the first time he got antsy and almost left me at a restaurant (one that was 100 yards from his house) because he was going to be 5 minutes late for his WoW raid. Or the times he critiqued me and complained about my inefficient foot/shoulder massage skills. Or insisted on keeping me up until 4 AM watching movies when I had class at 8 AM (literally barricaded me on the couch and whined if I left). Oh dear GOD it was awful, but you know, maybe it's what I needed to teach me it's really, REALLY ok to be by myself.
I'm trying to move to Atlanta in September/October. I'm working on getting a job here to support that venture, since I just found out my mom won't be helping me out for the first month or so like I'd expected. Soooo....in the event that I don't manage to get a job in my very short time frame for saving money, my Zaoll will officially be for sale for $400, and I still have my Leeke World Hero head and my Dollga Noella head for sale right now.
Ok, my venting and greetings are complete! Now I've got a lot of doll stuff to catch up on.....