Doll Sales...hmm...
Ok. This is hard for me. But I hardly do anything with my Tinybear Bracken...so, I'm not listing him officially for sale, just mentioning it here. If there happens to be anyone interested, get in touch with me/make me an offer. Tons of photos of him here
(sidenote: why is it since Flickr changed their formatting, etc., my pictures from there won't post anywhere, like here or DoA?)
I started classes again yesterday. Already have uber-homework, and the empty house business is getting to me even worse because of it for some reason. I guess because I know all this work kills my social life and ability to get out of the house/studio. It was nice living with someone and at least having someone to come home to. But good grief, what's wrong with me?
I have five other men I could choose from right now...it's starting to overwhelm me very badly. I'm just not excited for any of them because they're not a 6'1" light-brown haired, blue-eyed asshole, which is my type, I've discovered. It's an awful, delicate situation between us right now, where nothing is defined, and he holds ALL the power. It's all good and pleasant until I voice a request such as "I miss you. I wish you weren't busy tonight." I can't press the issue, I can't ask for time, I have to give him all the space in the world and treat this situation like the sheet of millimeter thin glass it is, or it will crack. And why am I doing this? I know even if I did repair things, my family despises him, my friends would like to dismember him, he can't stand my family...what in the bloody hell am I expecting?
I am trying to give up my pothead brigade of "friends" too. Trying to do it quietly, by not responding to them, but it's not quite working out. I want to have a social circle, just not one like that. I won't participate in that sort of crap with them, and it gets on their nerves more and more anyway.
I was so much happier just tucked away in my own little world with just a few people in it, and a stable boyfriend to rely on. I still don't know if that's "wrong" of me or not. Either way, as soon as my health insurance kicks back in, I am seeking a better therapist and hopefully medication. All this stress + adding SCAD, I can tell, is just not gonna go down well.
(sidenote: why is it since Flickr changed their formatting, etc., my pictures from there won't post anywhere, like here or DoA?)
I started classes again yesterday. Already have uber-homework, and the empty house business is getting to me even worse because of it for some reason. I guess because I know all this work kills my social life and ability to get out of the house/studio. It was nice living with someone and at least having someone to come home to. But good grief, what's wrong with me?
I have five other men I could choose from right now...it's starting to overwhelm me very badly. I'm just not excited for any of them because they're not a 6'1" light-brown haired, blue-eyed asshole, which is my type, I've discovered. It's an awful, delicate situation between us right now, where nothing is defined, and he holds ALL the power. It's all good and pleasant until I voice a request such as "I miss you. I wish you weren't busy tonight." I can't press the issue, I can't ask for time, I have to give him all the space in the world and treat this situation like the sheet of millimeter thin glass it is, or it will crack. And why am I doing this? I know even if I did repair things, my family despises him, my friends would like to dismember him, he can't stand my family...what in the bloody hell am I expecting?
I am trying to give up my pothead brigade of "friends" too. Trying to do it quietly, by not responding to them, but it's not quite working out. I want to have a social circle, just not one like that. I won't participate in that sort of crap with them, and it gets on their nerves more and more anyway.
I was so much happier just tucked away in my own little world with just a few people in it, and a stable boyfriend to rely on. I still don't know if that's "wrong" of me or not. Either way, as soon as my health insurance kicks back in, I am seeking a better therapist and hopefully medication. All this stress + adding SCAD, I can tell, is just not gonna go down well.