A TaNaka OneShot-Part Three [MISSUNDERSTANDINGS]
Author: Haruna
Genre: Angst, Romance, fluff, psycological (maybe...)
Pairing: TaNaka, JinRu (friendship), JunKi (friendship)
Rating: R/NC- 17
Summary: Only love can cure lovesickness.
Disclaimer: I don't own them. Just the plot, if I own one of them you should call me Mrs. KoKameRuNishiJunDa
More than two months passed since the last time Koki visited Yuichi's apartment.
The feeling of wanting to break the other was too much for the rapper to deal with.
He will never lay a finger on Yuichi. Never again.
He will never hurt him again.
Even if it meant loose the thin bond they still have, it didn't matter.
Yuichi was the most precious person he had ever had in his whole life. If let him go was the right thing to do, then he will do it, no matter how much he was going to suffer.
He will do it.
The distance between them was affecting both the two young men.
The beat boxer blamed himself so much, in the end his biggest fear became truth.
He lost Koki, he lost his beloved Koki forever.
He knew the other wasn't going to come back to him never again.
He knew he couldn't give Koki what he really needed.
But he knew his heart was cut into pieces, torn.
Nakamaru Yuichi was falling apart more and more, day after day. Loosing himself, loosing that happy smile he used to show every morning at his friends.
Tanaka Koki hid his sadness deeply into his heart. He dig it, he needed to lock his feelings, he needed to act as it was the best thing to do for Maru's sake. But what about his own happiness? What about his own heart?
It didn't matter as soon as Yuichi was ok. But he wasn't and Koki didn't know it.
Thanks to a caring destiny they weren't alone. They had friends, close and great friends that cared so much about them that they could stop whatever they were doing and run, as fast as possible just to drop by and say “It will be all right”.
Akanishi Jin was the short tempered type, funny and dorky, the perfect match for Maru in Koki's mind. The rapper always thought Maru's secret crush was Jin. How wrong he was...
How blind can a man's eyes be... ?
Taguchi Junnosuke was cool, a bright smile that can melt every heart on hearth. The perfect guy that Koki needed by his side. In Yuichi's opinion he was.
How deaf can be a man's ears be... ?
How long two destined souls can be apart, before realizing they're just calling each other so loud that they can't hear their voices?
There are people around us that know our silence more than our voices. There are friends that can read our hearts more than what we, ourselves, can do.
There are human beings that can see the pain in our eyes more than what we can do, looking at ourselves in a mirror.
Taguchi and Akanishi were that kind of people. Always ready to run in defense of those friends that life could easily break down. Those friends whose pure hearts can turn so dark and stained that neither a sin can make them so black. Those friends who will give up everything just to protect those they love. Those friends who needed them right now, unable to see and hear the most important thing in their lives. Love.
“Junno we need to do something about this” suddenly said Jin, knowing better then anyone how fragile Yuichi was. He knew his friend was trying his hardest not to affect everyone's work with his problems. And he knew for a long time how deeply he loved Koki.
He told his friend many times that having a sex relationship won't take them any further. Yuichi replied it was enough, for someone like him being just the man Koki had sex with was enough.
The younger man never understood what “A man like me” meant, until one day, when he found his friend crying silently in a corner. Yuichi was a simple guy, mature and straight when it comes to his projects. Being called common hurt, and he felt so hurt he started to consider himself a coward and a looser. He understood why “just have sex with him is fine” made sense in Yuichi's mind.
Until that day he had never really seen his friend's true heart.
He touched it.
The high and deep shell the beat boxer built between his heart and the world. Yuichi's tears seemed so heavy that Jin didn't know he himself could cry so much, feeling his friend's sorrow.
Koki and Maru needed to open their eyes and look at each other for real, because what they were doing was just crushing against each other's shell.
“Yeah, you're right.” replied Junno. He sighed and thought about how lonely his friend Koki looked on the rooftop, staring at the infinite, with no more goals in his life.
How empty his eyes became after he decided that keep a distance between him and Maru was the only right thing to do.
The acrobat knew well how Koki built a fake strong image around himself. His friend instead was unsure and lonely. He dealt with many things in his life, he lost someone important when he was still young. He knew the pain of being left behind. Koki never showed his weak points, he wanted to become someone his friends and Yuichi could lean on. He so wanted it but he ended up on the opposite track. He too built a deep shell between his heart and the outside.
Junno too tripped on that wall and felt such a deep pain hidden behind it he couldn't act like Koki was all right.
Jin and Junno both knew that their closest friends were slowly burning out, consumed by their own solitude. They were friends, but they couldn't erase that sadness, only love could cure Yuichi and Koki.
When love is the infection, only love can be the cure...
“Yucchi... I'm sorry... I promised Koki I won't tell you anything, but I can't stay quiet... He's leaving, and he won't come back” Junno looked serious into Yuichi's eyes, which filled with tears in the same instant he heard the words leaving and won't come back.
He felt so broken, his breath almost stopped, it was going to explode for the pain.
Why? Why Koki was leaving?
The acrobat looked at his friend sad “Yucchi you're the only one who can stop him now....”
Junno gave him a piece of paper with a flight number and the flight time, Maru's heart bumped into his ears, his feet moved on their own, he run
He run under the cold pouring rain.
He couldn't let this happen, not now, he need Koki. Even if he will be rejected he needed to say I love you to his beloved Koki.
Maru run so much his legs ached, he could have taken a taxi, but his brain wasn't working, all he could do was run, run, and run.
10,42
The flight was leaving in less than 10 minutes, the tall guy speeded up, breathless, soaked in rain, feeling heavy and desperate.
Don't leave.
Don't leave me alone, please.
The same thoughts echoed in his mind.
10,47
Still three minutes before Koki will leave him forever. Maru arrived breathless at the check in point. There where so many people, He turned around terrified, eyes wide opened, trying to catch just a small detail that can help him to recognize Koki in that crowd.
The beat boxer lifted his head and saw it on the screen
“Flight number Z34796 DEPARTED”
Maru trembled. He was late, too late. Koki left. He was gone, he had just lost the last chance to be honest with his friend. He had just lost the chance to tell him the truth.
He had just lost the only person he wanted next to him for the rest of his life.
Lost in a sort of trance, dripping cold rain drops all over the floor he reached a bench and sat on it, feeling empty. Silent and warm tears rolled down on his checks, mixing with the cold rain drops.
He stared at the infinite, his sight was clouded, he saw people in front of them, saying goodbye to each other, hugging tight their dear lovers.
He wanted to be in time too, he wanted to say Don't leave me too.
But he was late, he saw the plane Koki took leaving.
Jin was walking nervously in front of the changing room door.
“oh Jin daijoubu?” Asked Koki feeling the other was worried about something.
Jin looked at him with a grimace of sadness.
“Koki... I shouldn't say this to you... But...”
The rapper sensed something, the first thought that crossed his mind was Yuichi.
“But? What happened Jin?” asked he worried, feeling uneasy, agitated.
“Yuichi.... - the older paused for a bit, taking a deep breath- he's leaving. He asked me to keep it secret from you, but I can't... I don't want to loose my friend. But I'm not able to stop him. You only can do it.” replied he ant put in Koki's hand a piece of paper with a flight number.
“Run” added Jin.
Koki's heart stopped. Yuichi was leaving. For real, it wasn't just a nightmare.
The younger guy thanked his friend and rushed out, he took a taxi, but the rain caused a huge traffic. Koki paid the taxi driver and run under the pouring rain. He almost tripped in his baggy pants.
Yuichi don't go, I need you.
You're like the air I breath.
Yuichi....
Koki's mind filled with his beloved Yuichi's image, he felt tears in the back of his eyes.
Nobody else exists on the whole earth that could replace Yuichi.
The older was Koki's everything, the only person that could trepass that deep shell he built.
All he needed was just his precious Yuichi.
I want to say you that I love you, that I'm sorry for hurting you.
I want to protect you.
I want to love you Yuichi
Koki rushed in the airport and run to the check in point. His breath was shortened, his sight was blurry cause of the rain and the tears he was desperately trying to hold back.
He looked around, he walked like a crazy turning unknown people,looking desperately for Yuichi.
He looked up at the clock.
10,57
His kneels trembled.
He was late. He lost the only person he had ever lost for 7 damn minutes.
Why was he always so late?
Koki bent in half catching his breath, letting go of those tears he tried to chase away.
In front of him, a stewardess was trying to calm down a crying man, Koki looked closely at him.
Yuichi.
He didn't left, he was right in front of his eyes. Koki's heart raced, he gathered all his left energies and run in his direction.
Don't touch him, don't talk with him.
I'll take care of him.
The shaved guy reached the other and pulled him into a tight hug, not even leaving Yuichi the time to realize who was hugging him.
“You're here” said the guy in with a broken voice. “I thought I'd lost you, I thought I was late, I thought you were going to disappear from my sight”
Yuichi was lost, he realized after few seconds in whose arms he was, how tight that hug was. His heart melted, he never thought he could see Koki cry that much.
“Koki... “ murmured he crying too.
“Don't leave please -begged Maru- I can't live on if you leave me, I love you, I've always had...”
Koki's heart skipped a beat.
He heard it well right, Yuichi said he loves him.
He wasn't dreaming it, it was true. Koki's heart hurt, he has always thought Maru was in love with Jin, instead he was suffering for Koki's fault.
He loosened the hug and kissed Yuichi's lips for 30 endless seconds.
“I love you Yuichi, I'm sorry... I hurt you, I've always thought you loved someone else...”
Maru looked at him with teary eyes.
“Then why were you leaving?” Murmured he, sniffing.
The shaved guy broke the hug, and with red and swollen eyes looked confused at the other.
He wasn't leaving, Yuichi was the one who was leaving.
“You were leaving...” murmured he and got a shocked expression as a reply.
Maru shook his head and shoved Koki the piece of paper he got from Junno. Koki's eyes widened, he had the same piece of paper.
“Jin gave me this....” said he and they looked at each other.
A heartily laugh filled the check in point. People stared at them, and they both blushed.
The two young men giggled and sniffed, realizing what just happened.
Their friends tricked them, they really deserved an Oscar for their act.
Maru looked in Koki's eyes, and the younger kissed him with passion. It didn't matter if people were looking at them, all the rapper wanted was right in front of him. Yuichi held Koki tight deepening the kiss, crying into it. His most important dream just became truth... and nothing else did matter.
They broke the kiss, needing air.
Koki caressed Maru's cheek, drying his tears.
“You're soaked in rain” Whispered he looking at his beloved with sweet eyes.
“You too..” replied Maru smiling warmly at him.
“My house is closer, I don't want you to catch a cold...”
Koki's words were filled with love and care for Yuichi, who held Koki's hand and nodded.
“Let's go...” replied feeling he was never been that happy before in his whole life.
Koki's apartment was bigger than what Yuichi had always thought. The atmosphere was warm, exactly like the feeling Koki had always inspired in Maru's heart.
Koki came out of the shower, a towel wrapped around his hips, he headed to the living room where Yuichi was waiting him and sat next to the other kissing his check.
“Do you feel better now?” asked he caressing Yuichi's still humid hair.
The older nodded and smiled at him gently.
“Yeah.” replied he and stared at Koki's dark eyes.
They read into each other's heart.
How could they be so stupid? Not realizing they were in love with each other for such a long time...
“I'm sorry Koki, I was so stupid...” Maru apologized, but the other pulled him into a tight hug again, shaking his head.
“Iie, I should apologize, I hurt you so much, I was going insane with jealousy, I wanted you to be only mine... I don't have any kind of excuse. I'm so sorry....”
Koki's words reflected the guilty deep-seated in his heart., Yuichi caressed gently his back.
“It's okay Koki... It's okay. I never told you my feelings... I drove you to that insanity...” Murmured he and break the hug, holding Koki's face in his soft hands.
“Just be with me from now on...”
Koki's heart hurt.
“How can I...? I don't have any right after what I've do...”
Maru shut his complains up with a deep kiss.
“Stop this. All I need is you, we can start over...”
The older guy kissed the younger again, pulling him down with himself.
“Love me Koki, this time I want to make love with you” Whispered he in the other's ear, before kissing softly his neck.
Koki trembled, as if it was his first time. Maru smiled at him and with his palm caressed Koki's check.
“It's okay...” said he warmly and kissed Koki's lips again
They both dreamt of that day so many times, it seemed so unreal. But it was real. They were there, knowing each other's feelings.
Koki kissed Maru slowly, tasting him, savoring his mouth. He wanted them to kiss like that so much, that he almost forgot to catch breath, just not to break it.
His hand traveled under Maru's sweater, caressing shy his warm skin.
Yuichi moaned soft, agitated and nervous. Koki's touch was so different from what it was before, so soft and caring,
Koki explored the other's chest with his palms, not leaving Maru's lips alone. Those lips he wanted to kiss so badly.
He knew he was maybe making the other breathless, but he needed to kiss him. He needed it so much he could just forget about the rest.
The rapper undressed Maru from his sweater and stared at him.
“Beautiful...” whispered he and bent on him again.
Maru's soft moans echoed in the room as Koki started to kiss his neck gently, sucking here and there, leaving love marks.
His marks. The prove Yuichi was really only his now.
It didn't took long that them both got excited, rubbing their bodies against each other, tasting their flushed lips badly.
Koki suddenly stopped and stood up, carrying Yuichi in bride style to his bedroom.
“It must be special” explained he noticing the lost expression on Maru's face.
The other nodded and smiled at him. He knew it. Koki was exactly the kind of person he had always painted in his mind...
The younger laid his lover on the bed and topped him sitting in his lap. He bent on him again, sucking his lower lip, then slid down kissing his jawl his neck, his collarbone, his ect, drawing circles with his thumbs on Maru's nipples.
The older threw his head backward and wrapped his arms around Koki, caressing restlessly his back, stoking the soft skin on his back neck.
Koki moaned and moved down more, sucking on Yuichi's nipple, thing that made the other arch his back in pleasure.
The air filled with their passion, with their moans, with words of love that they whispered to each other.
Koki's excitement was growing slowly, along with Yuichi's. Their hardening shaft touched through the cotton tissue of Koki's towel and Maru's pants. The moaned louder, into each other's mouth.
The rapper pulled down the other's pants along with his boxers and released him from that compulsion. He looked at him, happy to see him excited too. He stroke the other, looking into his eyes, whispering sweet words, he stroke a little faster, making Yuichi harder.
“uhn koki...” purred he and looked up at his lover with eyes full of love.
The younger took him in his mouth, making Maru gasp for the sudden humid sensation around his shaft. Maru run his fingers on Koki's shaved head and moaned low and lusty, thrusting up a bit, in his lover's mouth. He sucked harder and the other shut his eyes tight, enjoying the feeling.
Koki stopped in the right moment, he didn't want His lover to come yet.
He wanted it to be perfect for his beloved Yuichi. No matter what he won't never hurt him again.
He stretched towards his bed night table and took a tube of lube, pouring a consistent amount of the substance on his index finger, He bent on Yuichi again and kissed him passionately, in order to keep his attention away from his finger, which was pushed gently inside of his lover.
Maru contracted his muscles and Koki stopped concerned. Maru smiled and reassured him, pulling the caring man into another hoe kiss.
The shorter man's finger moved in and out, preparing him for something even better. Loud moans were heard after a second and then a third finger were inserted, stretching the sweet tight cavern.
“Do it...” Murmured the beat boxer, going crazy for the pleasure yet. He licked teasingly Koki's ear and bit his lobe, making the other feel shivers all over his body.
Caring about the other Koki slowly substituted his fingers with his hardness and kissed Maru hard and when the last one relaxed he moved, slow and deep thrusts. It was good, it felt so good, taking their time, not rushing it. Maru's moans became higher pitched when Koki changed his angle and hit right on his sweet spot. Koki felt the other tighter around him, and almost saw white, but he held it back, wanting to feel a little more. The rapper stroke his beloved lover, wanting them to come together. Again they kissed, calling loud their names as their peaks came closer and closer.
Koki broke the kiss and looked at Yuichi, a moaning mess, under his body, his flushed lips, his red cheeks, his messed hair... It was the first time he saw something that beautiful.
“Aishiteru Yuichi” said the baldy and kissed him again.
They came together, bringing themselves together as never before.
Koki's excitement left him and the guy rolled on his lover's side, pulling him into a warm hug, kissing softly his neck, cuddling him sweetly.
“I love you Yuichi, you're my everything...” Murmured he into his ear, leaning his nose against the other's back neck.
Maru held Koki's hand and intervawed their fingers together.
“I love you too Koki.” whispered he in response curling more in his beloved lover's hug.
They fell asleep, finally able to hear and see their love.
“Ne Jin, you heard it, that clinking?” the guy took of his sun glasses and nodded.
“Yup. Finally they knocked those shields down...”
The two guy giggled, and toast at their friends happy ending.
-Owari-
[N/A: Waaaah! Done! 7 pages for the third part of a one-shot XD OMG. But I'm glad they made it! :) Hope you'll like it, my dears! <3
Haru ]