A TaNaka OneShot-Part One [MISSUNDERSTANDINGS]
Author: Haruna
Genre: Angst, Romance, fluff, psycological (maybe...)
Pairing: TaNaka, JinRu (friendship), JunKi (friendship)
Rating: R/NC-17
Summary: Because Men Ears are deaf...
Disclaimer: I don't own them. Just the plot, if I own one of them you should call me Mrs. KoKameRuNishiJunDa
The door-bell rings, in the middle of the night, I'm still awake...
I walk towards the door of my apartment, reluctant but impatient.
I slowly turn the key into the keyhole.
It's you...
In the middle of the night you crash at my house.
The both of us know why. The both of us know what you want.
I let you in without any resistance. You close the door behind you and I find myself groaning, imprisoned between your body and the wall, after few minutes.
Today you're so impatient that you don't even wait to reach my bedroom.
You're starving lips explore my body, devouring every single centimeter of my skin.
Your hands caress my naked body and make it slave of your touch again.
I'm moaning louder and faster, but your not emitting any kind of sound, preparing yourself for what will happen, for what you've come to get..
It doesn't take too much that I find myself laying on the freezing marble floor.
I feel you inside of me, your body is moving fast, then slower, then faster, aiming only for your pleasure.
I could implore you as much as I won't but you'll never stop and then I keep silent, praying that this will end up soon.
It's not the physical pain that hurts me, but the consciousness that what we share it's not love.
I've always regretted the day I accepted all this, but it was the only possibility that I had to build a deeper bond with you.
Your thrusts become faster and more desperate, I know it, you're close to...
Even though you're hurting me, even though I feel humiliated, being the one you have sex with, I look forward the moment I will feel your heath invade my body, the only warmth I will ever receive from you.
That's it. Everything is finished. You're panting, your body is shining under those sweat drops, and I feel you still inside of me, loosing excitement.
You break that fleeting bond that links us and collapse next to me. You moan and try to catch your breath.
You didn't even realize I wasn't excited at all. You never notice it.
I always ask myself why you keep on coming back here, when I never satisfy you...
What we're doing it's just senseless, it's just what animals do...
Then why I can't put an end to this? I don't want to suffer anymore, but I don't want to loose that tiny bond that we share...
You're breath calmed down, I know you're laying next to me, I'll give up everything just to know what you're thinking about in this moment, while you're looking at me.
I'll do everything if you would hold me tight in your arms.
You ask me if you can stay over and sleep here at my house, with your usual abandoned-puppy expression. And how am I supposed to resist you?
I say you can and you help me to stand, then you immediately go to take a shower, as if you're penitent for what we have just done.
I feel a piercing twinge in my chest.
I want to cry, but I can't, so I prepare your futon, I look for clean clothes to give you for the night and I wait for you to come back from the shower.
And now I'm the one taking a shower, crying silently under the falling water, so I will be able to put up a credible excuse for my red and swollen eyes.
When I come back from the bathroom you're dressed up yet, laying in your futon. You say to me “oaysumi” and then you go to sleep.
You don't ask me why my eyes are red, it's a long time since you asked it... because you Know I will reply that it's the soap fault.
Will ever realize that I lie every time?
I put on my pajama and lay on my bed, you're showing me your back... I stare at you for some minutes, but then I give up and I deeply fall asleep...
It's morning, I weak up with the usual sad sensation... I dreamt of you kissing me, saying that I was your everything.
How silly ne?
As if anything had happened last night we joke and eat breakfast together.
I don't rember the day I became so good in lying and acting.
I just want to stop... I don't want to go like this any longer.