SooOOoo....
My mom is being a mega bitch like usual...making me question the thought of why I even concidered moving back in...although it's still better than living with you know who sometimes. I'm trying to go to school this semester...but it looks like my loan people are going to make it as hard for me as possible. I think I'm going to have to pay for all this semester out of pocket. I really want to move out hardcore. I just don't want to repeat all of the same mistakes that I made with Meagan. I don't think I can go through that again. Over the last couple of days I've really been thinking a lot about myself and how I am. I think that I'm a jerk sometimes because I try to drive people away. I'm just no good at being vunerable. I really need to now too. I despratly want to open up to someone...hell I even want to get my heart stomped on...as long as I feel...I'm so tired of not feeling. Oh and negative a gagrillion to six feet under to killing off nate!!!!!!!!!