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[hartbreakhell]

i wish i could make something out of the time you have left, but you are so gone there is nothing i can do. i know that death is inevitable but i figured you had more time left and that when the end did come it would be quick and peaceful. instead you've been slowly fading for months. you deserved a better life than the one that you've had and now you're stuck going to the doctors three times a week for 8 hours a day. i know we were never as close as grandfathers and granddaughters should be but deep down inside i've always loved you. no matter what you did to grandma i learned from the good you did. even now i know that you love me too and i wish i had the guts to say this all to your face but maybe you were right, i'm not brave enough for that. i hope that you'll understand what i feel before the end and i promise to you and myself i'll be with you at the end.

now and forever,
me