yup
"Today Jessi said she realized how special our relationship is, and she appreciates me so much, and decided she wants to marry me. That all sounds good. I hope she doesn't decide to break up with me next week, and then I'll look back at this entry and feel like a retard."
Two days later she says she doesn't want a relationship, and also doesn't want me to be with her this summer in Ithaca. Good thing I didn't get a job there. Why am I even living with someone who doesn't want me in my own house when I'm paying rent?
The sad thing is, my standards for who I date are so high, that I don't think there is anyone I could ever be as happy with as I am with Jessi. And it really hurts that she thinks she could be happy with another guy. If she thinks I'm the best, like she says, why would she not make sacrifices to make sure I stay close with her? I should make all the sacrifices? No way.
Two days later she says she doesn't want a relationship, and also doesn't want me to be with her this summer in Ithaca. Good thing I didn't get a job there. Why am I even living with someone who doesn't want me in my own house when I'm paying rent?
The sad thing is, my standards for who I date are so high, that I don't think there is anyone I could ever be as happy with as I am with Jessi. And it really hurts that she thinks she could be happy with another guy. If she thinks I'm the best, like she says, why would she not make sacrifices to make sure I stay close with her? I should make all the sacrifices? No way.