stupid parents
a couple days ago, my mom noticed that i repeatedly wrote 'fat' on my thighs and gave me a lecture about self-respect, and losing weight "healthily" and suggested that i should be losing about 2 pounds a week. are you kidding me?! i'm talking about losing 100 pounds, that's 50 weeks... thats a year! i am not waiting until i'm a senior to be pretty. i want to be 120 by january. that puts me in line for my goal by around april- i guess as far as the school year goes, that's about the same, but i don't want to wait a year. but this does mean i can't fast. if i do, my parents will flip out and assume i have an eating disorder (hello, no one over 200 pounds has an eating disorder, it's mutually exclusive)
but im actually feeling really good. i've dropped nearly 20 pounds from my highest weight of 226 (i'm 208.5 as of today) and it's making me feel really good. for the first time in over a year, i really don't feel like cutting. i'm not depressed. i feel great. maybe imitation-anorexia is my cure :) or maybe being fat was my problem in the first place. i'm still fat, but i'm gonna change that.
but im actually feeling really good. i've dropped nearly 20 pounds from my highest weight of 226 (i'm 208.5 as of today) and it's making me feel really good. for the first time in over a year, i really don't feel like cutting. i'm not depressed. i feel great. maybe imitation-anorexia is my cure :) or maybe being fat was my problem in the first place. i'm still fat, but i'm gonna change that.