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I'm still alive.
Just thought I should let everyone know since my last post may have implied otherwise.
I'm still around and I'm doing slightly better.
Someone once told me suicide is selfish. I thought that was insensitive at first, but it's true, in a way. It hurts sooooooo many people besides the person who commits it, no matter who you are, whether you know it or not, you DO affect at least one other person in this world positively, and killing yourself is killing a piece of them. That's not cool.
Sooooo.
Anyhoo.
Two Government critiques due tomorrow, anyone wanna give me a hand with them?
I'm almost done with the Berger one, I just have to do the summary and the disagree page, but I haven't started the Albright one at all.
He gave them both to me yesterday and wants them both tomorrow if possible.
So, can anyone give me either a summary or a disagree page for either of the pieces? Those are always harder for me. I can bullshit agree pages and new idea pages really well. If anyone hooks me up I'd be much obliged, I promise I'll write a paper for you in college or something <3
I feel so sick, I couldn't concentrate at all during tutoring today, I just wanted to sleep, or dunk my head in a bucket of water because it felt so dirty because my nose was running and mymouth was all icky.
I had a waffle for breakfast but apparently it wasn't enough because I'm already hungry again. My dad brought home bread dough though, I think I'm going to wait until he bakes bread and then eat that.
I think I'm addicted to food like people are addicted to heroin.
It's really terrible.
I don't know which is worse...
Too much, or too little...
How can I take a simple thing like FOOD and screw it up?
It's a prime example of what a screw up I am.
I screw up everyday things.
I have issues with things which are normal and typical for everyone else.
I just mess things up for myself so badly...
I've decided when I get my own place I'm only going to have one mirror in it, and it's going to be a face mirror.
Just to apply makeup.
No body mirrors AT ALL.
And I'm going to save money and have a workout room with a treadmill and a stairmaster and all that crap so I don't have to spend a bagillion dollar signs to go to a gym and get fit, I can do it in my own home, whenever I want to, even in my PJs lol.
I need to get a good education so I can get a good job and afford all this crap I want.
I'm not materialistic at all but there are just certain things I really would like to have, and those things happen to be expensive, so I have to work hard for them.
Traveling, for instance.
That's my goal, to travel the world.
And help people, which is voluntary, you don't make money from it, so I'll need another source of income.
But enough about that, I remember I made a ridiculously long post a while ago about my dream of helping the world, and adopting foreign kids and such, I won't do that again.
If you missed it, check out my archive.
LOL LJ is so cool, it gives every person an archive, like we're all famous or something.
I'd feel so special if someone went through my archive and said something like "That line you wrote towards the end of your second entry on February 6th was really powerful/it inspired me/I could relate to it on so many levels". Hehe. Silly Saryta.
Alixx and I are going to see Courtney Love on June 28th if my parents let me. Honestly, I'm not a big fan of her because of how she treated my beloved Kurt, but I do like her crazy slutty heroin addict style lol. Not that I want to be a slut or a heroin addict, but I don't know, she's original, she's insane, I want to see her live, and I want to chill with Alixx because she's Miss World and I adore her.
I think I'm done wasting your time...
Haha Mr. Thompson is coming to my house at 4:30 to tutor me in French.
He's the man.
LOL.
BYE :)
Just thought I should let everyone know since my last post may have implied otherwise.
I'm still around and I'm doing slightly better.
Someone once told me suicide is selfish. I thought that was insensitive at first, but it's true, in a way. It hurts sooooooo many people besides the person who commits it, no matter who you are, whether you know it or not, you DO affect at least one other person in this world positively, and killing yourself is killing a piece of them. That's not cool.
Sooooo.
Anyhoo.
Two Government critiques due tomorrow, anyone wanna give me a hand with them?
I'm almost done with the Berger one, I just have to do the summary and the disagree page, but I haven't started the Albright one at all.
He gave them both to me yesterday and wants them both tomorrow if possible.
So, can anyone give me either a summary or a disagree page for either of the pieces? Those are always harder for me. I can bullshit agree pages and new idea pages really well. If anyone hooks me up I'd be much obliged, I promise I'll write a paper for you in college or something <3
I feel so sick, I couldn't concentrate at all during tutoring today, I just wanted to sleep, or dunk my head in a bucket of water because it felt so dirty because my nose was running and mymouth was all icky.
I had a waffle for breakfast but apparently it wasn't enough because I'm already hungry again. My dad brought home bread dough though, I think I'm going to wait until he bakes bread and then eat that.
I think I'm addicted to food like people are addicted to heroin.
It's really terrible.
I don't know which is worse...
Too much, or too little...
How can I take a simple thing like FOOD and screw it up?
It's a prime example of what a screw up I am.
I screw up everyday things.
I have issues with things which are normal and typical for everyone else.
I just mess things up for myself so badly...
I've decided when I get my own place I'm only going to have one mirror in it, and it's going to be a face mirror.
Just to apply makeup.
No body mirrors AT ALL.
And I'm going to save money and have a workout room with a treadmill and a stairmaster and all that crap so I don't have to spend a bagillion dollar signs to go to a gym and get fit, I can do it in my own home, whenever I want to, even in my PJs lol.
I need to get a good education so I can get a good job and afford all this crap I want.
I'm not materialistic at all but there are just certain things I really would like to have, and those things happen to be expensive, so I have to work hard for them.
Traveling, for instance.
That's my goal, to travel the world.
And help people, which is voluntary, you don't make money from it, so I'll need another source of income.
But enough about that, I remember I made a ridiculously long post a while ago about my dream of helping the world, and adopting foreign kids and such, I won't do that again.
If you missed it, check out my archive.
LOL LJ is so cool, it gives every person an archive, like we're all famous or something.
I'd feel so special if someone went through my archive and said something like "That line you wrote towards the end of your second entry on February 6th was really powerful/it inspired me/I could relate to it on so many levels". Hehe. Silly Saryta.
Alixx and I are going to see Courtney Love on June 28th if my parents let me. Honestly, I'm not a big fan of her because of how she treated my beloved Kurt, but I do like her crazy slutty heroin addict style lol. Not that I want to be a slut or a heroin addict, but I don't know, she's original, she's insane, I want to see her live, and I want to chill with Alixx because she's Miss World and I adore her.
I think I'm done wasting your time...
Haha Mr. Thompson is coming to my house at 4:30 to tutor me in French.
He's the man.
LOL.
BYE :)