Down on my knees, down on my face...
One of my friends at work, who is also a good friend of John's, spent all day today trying to figure out why we broke up and why we aren't getting back together. His mission was to hear both sides of the story, put them together, and get us to talk about it--again.
Well, obviously, the two of us aren't very good at the whole communication thing. I freely admit that I'm not, but I've been severely independent my whole life, so I'm not exactly used to sharing my personal thoughts with anyone else. Anyway, our stories didn't exactly mesh. I could have predicted that one, all things considered. One thing was clear though, we're both too stuck on our own pride and are too stubborn to make any sort of move to fix what happened. At least that's how I see it.
Annnnd, I'm pretty disconcerted now that I know that Teddy, who's 25 by the way, is divorced and has a daughter. It's amazing the things you find out when you're not really looking. I don't think I can feel comfortable having a Relationship with someone who's been married before and had a child to represent that. That's something sacred to me--marriage and babies. They go hand in hand and that bond, for me, is something that won't be broken. In my eyes, marriage is forever and that's why I'm so picky with who I date. I don't think less of him for it, but I'm fairly confident that nothing will come of any date we have because that will be in the back of my mind.
I have watch tomorrow, once again on one of my days off. I'm considering going in a little early to get some extra training. I actually stayed after my shift today for just that, but I don't want to look too motivated ;) I may just study while on watch. And, since I'll be going into work again on Wednesday to give blood, I don't really want to spend anymore time there than needed!
All things mentioned aside, I was in a really good mood today. I had more than one person compliment me on my smile :)
Well, obviously, the two of us aren't very good at the whole communication thing. I freely admit that I'm not, but I've been severely independent my whole life, so I'm not exactly used to sharing my personal thoughts with anyone else. Anyway, our stories didn't exactly mesh. I could have predicted that one, all things considered. One thing was clear though, we're both too stuck on our own pride and are too stubborn to make any sort of move to fix what happened. At least that's how I see it.
Annnnd, I'm pretty disconcerted now that I know that Teddy, who's 25 by the way, is divorced and has a daughter. It's amazing the things you find out when you're not really looking. I don't think I can feel comfortable having a Relationship with someone who's been married before and had a child to represent that. That's something sacred to me--marriage and babies. They go hand in hand and that bond, for me, is something that won't be broken. In my eyes, marriage is forever and that's why I'm so picky with who I date. I don't think less of him for it, but I'm fairly confident that nothing will come of any date we have because that will be in the back of my mind.
I have watch tomorrow, once again on one of my days off. I'm considering going in a little early to get some extra training. I actually stayed after my shift today for just that, but I don't want to look too motivated ;) I may just study while on watch. And, since I'll be going into work again on Wednesday to give blood, I don't really want to spend anymore time there than needed!
All things mentioned aside, I was in a really good mood today. I had more than one person compliment me on my smile :)