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New job starts tomorrow. I don't go in until 1pm though, so I have all morning to try to find things to do and fret about the whole thing. Great.
A little point of interest - on Friday, Corbin was at Marley's while I was down there having lunch (my family came up since it was my last day). Usually when he's at Marley's, he just doesn't see me so hard. But this time, I looked up and saw he was looking at me. And instead of looking away and pretending he hadn't noticed me, he smiled. And I smiled back. And he waved, and I waved back, and then he went back to talking to who he was with. So you know, I think we're good now. I think we're over it all and if we bump into each other someday it wouldn't be all weird. It was a nice little "period" at the end of my time there, I guess. Like now it's all been taken care of.
It was strange leaving. I guess I've never had a job that I've left and felt such a solid ending. I mean, when I worked at KMA I was just a temp anyway, and they just called one day and told me not to come in anymore. Then when I was working for my dad during college, it's not like I was leaving forever since it was at my parents' house (and I was still living there at the time). This is the first time it was like, my last day, and people were saying bye to me, and telling me to come visit and that they were sure I was never going to come back and see them, and I put a few things in my purse, went down the stairs, and left. It felt very final.
But I guess that makes sense. I did spend over a year there. And it's not like school, where you switch around classes and professors and classmates every few months. I suppose this is the first time I was in one place doing one thing for a full year, and now it's over - and it all happened pretty quick. So maybe that's why I've been feeling so unsettled. It's just a lot of change, all at once. And maybe that's why I've been so exhausted lately, too. I've been sleeping so much the last week, and I still get tired. I really should be in bed now, but since I have work later, I can sleep in. But once tomorrow's over, no more sleeping in for me. I'm going to miss starting work at 10am - now I've got to be in by 8:30, and it's farther away than Harley is, so I have to be out the door by 8. Sigh. That's going to be hard for a few days until I get used to it.
So, tomorrow's the day of truth. I hope the new job ends up being better than I feel. I hope all this anxiety and negative energy is just nerves, and not anything of importance. I mean, change is hard, right? Maybe that's all it is.
A little point of interest - on Friday, Corbin was at Marley's while I was down there having lunch (my family came up since it was my last day). Usually when he's at Marley's, he just doesn't see me so hard. But this time, I looked up and saw he was looking at me. And instead of looking away and pretending he hadn't noticed me, he smiled. And I smiled back. And he waved, and I waved back, and then he went back to talking to who he was with. So you know, I think we're good now. I think we're over it all and if we bump into each other someday it wouldn't be all weird. It was a nice little "period" at the end of my time there, I guess. Like now it's all been taken care of.
It was strange leaving. I guess I've never had a job that I've left and felt such a solid ending. I mean, when I worked at KMA I was just a temp anyway, and they just called one day and told me not to come in anymore. Then when I was working for my dad during college, it's not like I was leaving forever since it was at my parents' house (and I was still living there at the time). This is the first time it was like, my last day, and people were saying bye to me, and telling me to come visit and that they were sure I was never going to come back and see them, and I put a few things in my purse, went down the stairs, and left. It felt very final.
But I guess that makes sense. I did spend over a year there. And it's not like school, where you switch around classes and professors and classmates every few months. I suppose this is the first time I was in one place doing one thing for a full year, and now it's over - and it all happened pretty quick. So maybe that's why I've been feeling so unsettled. It's just a lot of change, all at once. And maybe that's why I've been so exhausted lately, too. I've been sleeping so much the last week, and I still get tired. I really should be in bed now, but since I have work later, I can sleep in. But once tomorrow's over, no more sleeping in for me. I'm going to miss starting work at 10am - now I've got to be in by 8:30, and it's farther away than Harley is, so I have to be out the door by 8. Sigh. That's going to be hard for a few days until I get used to it.
So, tomorrow's the day of truth. I hope the new job ends up being better than I feel. I hope all this anxiety and negative energy is just nerves, and not anything of importance. I mean, change is hard, right? Maybe that's all it is.