::whimpers:: I still can't seem to actually enjoy it though...
I feel horrible posting about doing all of these things and I'm still completely fucking broken up inside. I've been dreaming about my supposed boyfriend every night now, and I haven't heard from him in like two weeks.
It changed me at a deep, fundamental level. I was walking around alone in the quiet right before dawn and felt this subtle wave. The muscles around my heart unclenched. Literally. They had been tight for a long time.
The environment is so different, difficult, beautiful, and surreal, all at the same time, that your perception is radically altered. Sustain that over a week and you'll feel incredibly different. Then pour out your emotions on a gorgeous art piece, read the stories of thousands of other people, and watch it all burn down on the last night. It is a purge unlike any you have ever seen.
I think it can be quite a purge. But it doesn't have to be. You could just go and have a big party. I thought it was quite an experience. And something inside me says that you have to put effort into making it be a purge - I'm so Prusian sometimes. That said, I don't believe in things that "make me a different person." I just believe in the importance of the experiences of life.
True. I'm going to start focusing on how to make a good solid purge out there... Yay :) You get to watch me puke up stupid problems and get rid of them hopefully forever!
I'm actually looking forward to it. I think that you are someone that I could do that in front of, so you're officially going to be my shoulder to lean on. So there! That's what you get for being such a damn good friend!
*hughughug*
-tanjent wants to see the pictures!
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I still can't seem to actually enjoy it though...
I feel horrible posting about doing all of these things and I'm still completely fucking broken up inside.
I've been dreaming about my supposed boyfriend every night now, and I haven't heard from him in like two weeks.
Life is just fucking cruel.
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*doublehug*
-tanjent
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Word! I am feeling similarly.
One month until Burning Man, when we can purge all this.
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How can one week in the desert really make things different?
People keep saying it's a life changing experience...I don't believe it.
If change was that easy, I wouldn't still be dreaming of this person every night.
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It changed me at a deep, fundamental level. I was walking around alone in the quiet right before dawn and felt this subtle wave. The muscles around my heart unclenched. Literally. They had been tight for a long time.
That said, I'm still quite neurotic about boys.
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Can't help but feel totally squashed...
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But I wouldn't recommend my path to getting there.
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That said, I don't believe in things that "make me a different person." I just believe in the importance of the experiences of life.
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I'm going to start focusing on how to make a good solid purge out there...
Yay :) You get to watch me puke up stupid problems and get rid of them hopefully forever!
I'm actually looking forward to it. I think that you are someone that I could do that in front of, so you're officially going to be my shoulder to lean on.
So there! That's what you get for being such a damn good friend!
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You're so nice.
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You're the one who came back and started talking to me again, so I totally blame you for your great friendedness!!!
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