I GIVE UP!!!!
Well last night had one good moment, I am in the semi-finals for the haraoke contest now. That was the only thing good. I had planned on talking to the cowboy and finding out where I stood with him and what he wanted from me. Well he was there with some chick and was all over her all night right in front of me. I was soo hurt and angry at the same time. So in an attepmt to get back at him I sang a song which just happened to be him and his ex-fiance's song. I was going to go and get a friend of mine that I know would go along with me all over him just so I could play the cowboys game, but then one of the DJ's asked me if I wanted to be in the contest so I figured I will just try my hardest to beat him at that. I can play his games if I want to but last night I was too hurt to do much of anything. Then today I called a guy that I used to have a crush on (we talked yesterday before I went to Celebrations and he asked me to call him this morning). Well he wanted to hang out so I went over there. Previously we had talked about the fact that he wanted me to teach him a few things since he was still a virgin. Well he got taught today because he said he wanted to and kept asking. I feel soo bad now I guess I've never taken anyone's virginity so it is a little weird. It shouldn't be because I used to have a crush on him, but he has changed a lot since then. I never thought I would hear some of the things that came out of his mouth come out. The worst part is the fact that we couldn't stop laughing because neither of us really thought it would happen. I just hope it wasn't disappointing. Well that is all I really have to say now.
The reason for what mood I chose is the fact that within 24 hours I had my heart broken and took an old crushes virginity. I knew my life sucked but I am shocked at how I chose to react to it this time.