Wow its been a while
It has been a while since I have done this but things have kind of been crazy around here. I really want to move out but I don't have the money and if I do I will have to drop out of college and I really don't want to do that.
Work is ok I guess I have just been there a lot. I have been working between 20 and 30 hours a week. I know that may not sound like a lot to some people but it is to me. Due to the fact that I start at like 7 pm and sometimes don't get out until 3 am.
My personal life is really crazy right now. The guy that I got to spend the night with called me yesterday and we went to a bar and did karoke. Then I spent the night at his house again. (I didn't get home till 12pm so my mom is kind of mad at me). Then another guy that I have been in love with for 6 months is being immature. He got jealous when he found out that I had hooked up with a guy and it wasn't him. Then yesterday he tells me that he is moving and I tell him I might be hooking up with someone and he gets pissed because he thought we were working things out. I still love the guy I just don't know what to do anymore. The guy I might be hooking up with is my ex. I know, I know how stupid can I be. We were hanging out the other day and all of a sudden he kisses me and tells me he still loves me and is sorry for everything. I of course still love him but I am not sure if I want to be with him again. (The person I am hoping to be with is the first guy I talked about but he said he isn't looking for a committed relationship right now so I am hoping he will change his mind) My ex and I decided to just be friends and see where it goes from there. Then another of my guy friends wants me to move in with him. I really don't want to because I know he wants to have sex (he's a virgin) and I don't want to with him. I have tried giving hints but it doesn't seem to be working. I don't know how to tell him I only like him as a friend without losing him as that.
Home life is a constant up and down. One day everything is great between everyone and the next no one can get alone. I need a vacation.
Well I need to go get ready for work so I have to end this. I just wanted to say my usual hi to my cousin Jaime and my friend Stephanie (I will see you two Saturday...right???)