fed up
That's it, I've decided, i'm gone... I am getting the hell out of here. I don't know where I am going to go but I don't care anymore... My mom has fucked up my life for the last time.
Her bath gel was in my bathroom so for some fucking reason she goes into my room. I had written the last entry on my closet mirror doors and of course she gets all pissed off at that. Then she realized that I hadn't been taking my pills either. So she sends my Dad looking for me. He tells me that I am supposed to call my mom at her work at 7:40. I told my Dad that I am just sick of my mom and I can't stand her anymore. He told me not to let one person get to me... but the thing is this is my mom. My mom should never put me to this point in my life. So my Dad tells me that I should tell my mom how I feel. So I call her and she points out everything that I did wrong, I just sit there not talking and so she asks if I was still sleeping. I tell her no that I am just sick and tired of her. I told her that I don't want to be here anymore and how she told me that I am not part of the family. She just starts on arguing with me on how she never said that and how I am never home. I told her that the reason I was never home was because of her always finding some little small thing to fight with me about. After that I say again that I don't want to be here anymore and she just tells me something else wrong I did. I don't say anything so she says okay bye.
I just can't handle it anymore that as soon as I find a place to go I am out of here. I can't stand this bullshit my mom puts me through anymore... Sorry to the people that actually do care about me and will miss me if I go but, apparently you aren't there enough for me to help me through this so I just have to handle this all on my own. I'm going to miss those friends that were always trying to be there for me, you know who you are.. (Daryl, Tiami, Ashley, DeShon.... wow, that's about all the people who have actually been there for me, isn't that sad?!?!?)
Her bath gel was in my bathroom so for some fucking reason she goes into my room. I had written the last entry on my closet mirror doors and of course she gets all pissed off at that. Then she realized that I hadn't been taking my pills either. So she sends my Dad looking for me. He tells me that I am supposed to call my mom at her work at 7:40. I told my Dad that I am just sick of my mom and I can't stand her anymore. He told me not to let one person get to me... but the thing is this is my mom. My mom should never put me to this point in my life. So my Dad tells me that I should tell my mom how I feel. So I call her and she points out everything that I did wrong, I just sit there not talking and so she asks if I was still sleeping. I tell her no that I am just sick and tired of her. I told her that I don't want to be here anymore and how she told me that I am not part of the family. She just starts on arguing with me on how she never said that and how I am never home. I told her that the reason I was never home was because of her always finding some little small thing to fight with me about. After that I say again that I don't want to be here anymore and she just tells me something else wrong I did. I don't say anything so she says okay bye.
I just can't handle it anymore that as soon as I find a place to go I am out of here. I can't stand this bullshit my mom puts me through anymore... Sorry to the people that actually do care about me and will miss me if I go but, apparently you aren't there enough for me to help me through this so I just have to handle this all on my own. I'm going to miss those friends that were always trying to be there for me, you know who you are.. (Daryl, Tiami, Ashley, DeShon.... wow, that's about all the people who have actually been there for me, isn't that sad?!?!?)