Thinking about changes.
Overall things are going well and getting better. In the meantime been giving some food for thought.
Given the way things have been before, and with recent events, I am going to be taking alcohol completely out of my life for awhile.
Not for good, I still like my drink, however I need a break from it. I'm getting to think that taking anything altering at this stage in my life may not be the best of things.
I let myself go a few times recently when it came to drinking, and drinking enough to get drunk and/or tipsy. Though I was a happy drunk for the most part, I have made a few people concerned. This last time dredged up a lot of bullcrap that I thought I had laid to rest or at the very least thought I had a handle on. It has me concerned about keeping control over my life and my affairs. So I am going to stay off of the sauce for quite awhile. How long, I do not know. When I do go back to drinking, I will be keeping it to my one drink limit per outing again and nothing further. It won't bode well for my upcoming b-day party and for the times I go out drinking with the various crews I run with. However would much rather be in control overall than sliding back to places I don't want to be.
I've also come to realize that I still have some serious stress issues that are effecting my life. I have decided that I am going to take some new measures to put it to rest. I've been doing better when it comes to stress, however it still is effecting me and is something I need to deal with better. If anyone has suggestions on helping to hack chronic stress, I am all ears.
It is my goal to be a better person and find ways to live a better life. Especially with all the crap going on these days.
Given the way things have been before, and with recent events, I am going to be taking alcohol completely out of my life for awhile.
Not for good, I still like my drink, however I need a break from it. I'm getting to think that taking anything altering at this stage in my life may not be the best of things.
I let myself go a few times recently when it came to drinking, and drinking enough to get drunk and/or tipsy. Though I was a happy drunk for the most part, I have made a few people concerned. This last time dredged up a lot of bullcrap that I thought I had laid to rest or at the very least thought I had a handle on. It has me concerned about keeping control over my life and my affairs. So I am going to stay off of the sauce for quite awhile. How long, I do not know. When I do go back to drinking, I will be keeping it to my one drink limit per outing again and nothing further. It won't bode well for my upcoming b-day party and for the times I go out drinking with the various crews I run with. However would much rather be in control overall than sliding back to places I don't want to be.
I've also come to realize that I still have some serious stress issues that are effecting my life. I have decided that I am going to take some new measures to put it to rest. I've been doing better when it comes to stress, however it still is effecting me and is something I need to deal with better. If anyone has suggestions on helping to hack chronic stress, I am all ears.
It is my goal to be a better person and find ways to live a better life. Especially with all the crap going on these days.