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so jk left for home yesterday. :( New Years with 6 little kids and not a soul to legally kiss. ;). oh well. at least he's okay right? damn him for leaving me alone. :P
So there's been a little drama in the land of suzanne. my non boyfriend and i are having problems. Non boyfriend you ask with a crooked look. Yes, non boyfriend. A non boyfriend for those of you who've yet to be exposed to such a term is a male that you have a plutonic relationship with but you get everything else out of it that you'd get from dating someone. well he's reached the point that he wants more and he knows damn well that im dating jk which sucks cause more than likely it's the end of a friendship. crap.
but i guess what it really comes down to is that i had a really needy day today. i know it sounds horrible, but i just really needed a hug for the better part of the day...and...i didnt have anyone to get it from. sure i've got my mom and my brothers, but, i dont know it's just not the same u know? and it doesnt help that im sitting here listening to sad music. damn it. damn it. damn it. and the other bad part is jared is so doped up on morphine and what not...come midnight i'll be talking to myself let alone my man. am i pathetic or is it just me?
So there's been a little drama in the land of suzanne. my non boyfriend and i are having problems. Non boyfriend you ask with a crooked look. Yes, non boyfriend. A non boyfriend for those of you who've yet to be exposed to such a term is a male that you have a plutonic relationship with but you get everything else out of it that you'd get from dating someone. well he's reached the point that he wants more and he knows damn well that im dating jk which sucks cause more than likely it's the end of a friendship. crap.
but i guess what it really comes down to is that i had a really needy day today. i know it sounds horrible, but i just really needed a hug for the better part of the day...and...i didnt have anyone to get it from. sure i've got my mom and my brothers, but, i dont know it's just not the same u know? and it doesnt help that im sitting here listening to sad music. damn it. damn it. damn it. and the other bad part is jared is so doped up on morphine and what not...come midnight i'll be talking to myself let alone my man. am i pathetic or is it just me?