Sleep deprivation..
Why is it when you get something that you've wanted for so long.. Suddenly everything gets different. The mystery is gone.. The "game" which wasnt so much of a game to me.. Has come to an end. All that time waiting.. Wondering.. Anticipating.. And now Im left wanting more.. Or maybe even wishing that I had never gotten what I wanted.
Life is so confusing. Will I ever know what I want? Alcohol is bad.
Im utterly disgusted with the way Ive been treating myself lately.. Yet at the same time its somewhat of a thrill.. I just wish that I wasnt ashamed.. But then again.. Im really not.
Up-Down.. Right-Left.. Good-Bad.. I dont know the difference anymore. Everything is one big blob.. Life is one big blob.. Days all run together anymore.. Thoughts all run together in my head.. One minute I want this.. The next minute I want that.
You made me want to puke tonight.. I shouldnt be so nosey.
You made me smile the other night.. Until you told me what was really going on. You shouldnt be so conniving.. I shouldnt be so jealous.
You make me feel alive.. You give me hope.. You're words of encouragement are what I need to get by everyday.. You're one of the best friends Ive ever had.. You don't judge me.. You make me want to be a better person.. I shouldnt be so unthankful.
You gave me a hint of self worth tonight.. You told me that I was smart.. You believe in me.. I shouldnt push away compliments all the time.
You made me happy last night.. But only for a short period of time.. You ruined it when you showed how simple minded you are with your words.. I shouldnt be so caring.
You made me want to cry tonight.. You're amazing and you deserve so much better.. I shouldnt be so selfish.
You made me want to punch you tonight.. You're an asshole.. I shouldnt care about you the way that I do.
You made me feel bad tonight.. You want to hang out.. We're so much alike.. I shouldnt be so self absorbed.
You made me want to scream tonight.. You're a slut.. You're a whore.. You have no self respect.. You're life is too crazy for your own good.. You have no idea what you want.. You are selfish.. You are a terrible friend.. You cant keep your mouth shut.. Youre a total bitch.. I shouldnt be all of those things.
Take a guess which one I wrote for you.. You might get a suprise.. And there are no duplicates.. Only one per person.. Figure out more than one and maybe you'll get something extra special.
Ai me.. My sleep deprivation just took a new turn.
Life is so confusing. Will I ever know what I want? Alcohol is bad.
Im utterly disgusted with the way Ive been treating myself lately.. Yet at the same time its somewhat of a thrill.. I just wish that I wasnt ashamed.. But then again.. Im really not.
Up-Down.. Right-Left.. Good-Bad.. I dont know the difference anymore. Everything is one big blob.. Life is one big blob.. Days all run together anymore.. Thoughts all run together in my head.. One minute I want this.. The next minute I want that.
You made me want to puke tonight.. I shouldnt be so nosey.
You made me smile the other night.. Until you told me what was really going on. You shouldnt be so conniving.. I shouldnt be so jealous.
You make me feel alive.. You give me hope.. You're words of encouragement are what I need to get by everyday.. You're one of the best friends Ive ever had.. You don't judge me.. You make me want to be a better person.. I shouldnt be so unthankful.
You gave me a hint of self worth tonight.. You told me that I was smart.. You believe in me.. I shouldnt push away compliments all the time.
You made me happy last night.. But only for a short period of time.. You ruined it when you showed how simple minded you are with your words.. I shouldnt be so caring.
You made me want to cry tonight.. You're amazing and you deserve so much better.. I shouldnt be so selfish.
You made me want to punch you tonight.. You're an asshole.. I shouldnt care about you the way that I do.
You made me feel bad tonight.. You want to hang out.. We're so much alike.. I shouldnt be so self absorbed.
You made me want to scream tonight.. You're a slut.. You're a whore.. You have no self respect.. You're life is too crazy for your own good.. You have no idea what you want.. You are selfish.. You are a terrible friend.. You cant keep your mouth shut.. Youre a total bitch.. I shouldnt be all of those things.
Take a guess which one I wrote for you.. You might get a suprise.. And there are no duplicates.. Only one per person.. Figure out more than one and maybe you'll get something extra special.
Ai me.. My sleep deprivation just took a new turn.