...it feels what it wants to feel and it does what it wants to do...
6 more months... well about 7, but whos counting. thats all the time i have. then i can get the fuck out of here. i can get away from everything. i can start my life. i can break free from everything thats holding me down. i can get the FUCK OUT OF HERE! no one knows how happy i'll be when im on that plane. thats it, i dont WANT to fucking come back. cause then i cant get hurt again. i can get away from everything and not have to worry about it. i can just let it all go. i can just get the fuck out of here. just fuck all this high school bullshit. fuck my feelings, fuck my emotions, fuck everything. once im on that plane, just fuck everything. fuck love, fuck hate, fuck acting, fuck pretending. just FUCK EVERYTHING! so for then next 6 months, i dont fucking care. i am going to do what i want, when i want, how i want, and NO ONE is going to tell me otherwise. i will love who i want to, hate who i want to, kicj the shit out of who i want to, be friends with who i want to. nothing controls me. no one controls me. i have had it with all the fucking pretending and acting. i'm just going to say it, and if you take it the worng way, too damn bad. thats your own damn fault.