i can't resist the day....
its like i don't even know what going on through my own head anymore
i'm so fucked up and its no joke, i dont know my head from my ass and i dont know how to change it.
i want to let him go but i don't know life without him. its so easy to get used to someone and i hate that i love him
and then there joel?? everything about him is so sexy, and i found myself making excuses for his actions...why?
why do i do this to myself? why do i do this all the people that love me? i hate myself sometimes, i looked in the mirror at me and joel one night after we just finished doing a line and i didnt even reconize myself. it was like i was looking at a stranger.
i dont know what to do with myself, when im around everyone i just act as if nothings wrong, thats why i like being at work all day or out all night because when i actually have to come home and i look at these four walls im confronted by my demons
where the fuck do i go from here?
i'm so fucked up and its no joke, i dont know my head from my ass and i dont know how to change it.
i want to let him go but i don't know life without him. its so easy to get used to someone and i hate that i love him
and then there joel?? everything about him is so sexy, and i found myself making excuses for his actions...why?
why do i do this to myself? why do i do this all the people that love me? i hate myself sometimes, i looked in the mirror at me and joel one night after we just finished doing a line and i didnt even reconize myself. it was like i was looking at a stranger.
i dont know what to do with myself, when im around everyone i just act as if nothings wrong, thats why i like being at work all day or out all night because when i actually have to come home and i look at these four walls im confronted by my demons
where the fuck do i go from here?