keep fishing...
its weird
when i look back on my plans from the begining of the summer
this was "The Plan"
i was going to spend my WHOLE summer in texas
with a car
and i was going to get a job
spend the nights back and forth between my g-rents and jay
and kyle would be in the picture the whole time
kyle would come down here and we would get a hotel room
and when he wasnt down here i'd be in austin
i had this pretty picture painted in my head
and then things with my dad clashed
i still dont have a car
and i spent my whole summer in la.
and only this two weeks in texas
and then theres alan
and he changed the whole thing
i planned on not having a b/f at all
waiting for kyle to come around and i didnt want
to screw my realtionship up with kyle
but then alan came around
and he swept me off my feet
ive spent about 4 months with him
and i wouldnt change it
but i cant help thinking
what if
-what if my plans hadnt changed
-what if i hadnt gone back to daves house the next weekend
-what if kyle had kept all his promises
-what if i hadnt let myself be with someone(alan) because of kyle again
im not sad about how things ended up
but i can say i hate broken promises
and i hate being disappointed time and time again
oh well im done with this sad shit
when i look back on my plans from the begining of the summer
this was "The Plan"
i was going to spend my WHOLE summer in texas
with a car
and i was going to get a job
spend the nights back and forth between my g-rents and jay
and kyle would be in the picture the whole time
kyle would come down here and we would get a hotel room
and when he wasnt down here i'd be in austin
i had this pretty picture painted in my head
and then things with my dad clashed
i still dont have a car
and i spent my whole summer in la.
and only this two weeks in texas
and then theres alan
and he changed the whole thing
i planned on not having a b/f at all
waiting for kyle to come around and i didnt want
to screw my realtionship up with kyle
but then alan came around
and he swept me off my feet
ive spent about 4 months with him
and i wouldnt change it
but i cant help thinking
what if
-what if my plans hadnt changed
-what if i hadnt gone back to daves house the next weekend
-what if kyle had kept all his promises
-what if i hadnt let myself be with someone(alan) because of kyle again
im not sad about how things ended up
but i can say i hate broken promises
and i hate being disappointed time and time again
oh well im done with this sad shit