May 17, 2004 00:07
Okay, I'm posting something because I'm bored right now, I convieniently forgot I had this thing, and I might as well act as if I'm doing something creative. I have all of this extra energy since I thought there was something going on today, but alas I am two days late and ten dollars short. Being short the money doesn't really matter without a time machine anyway. I should be beating some ass on the dancefloor right now not sitting in front of my computer typing this energy away. I can check out que sera. They have underground electronica and trance, but I can see spending money I don't have on no name DJs. While electronica can be pretty much anything and be cool, trance, well, is just trance. This could just lead to a rant about alchohol culture in general, but why bother.
So I am just here following the universe's little tunnels through life. I have absolutely no idea where they are leading me. They seem to be leading me somewhere. Appearently photgraphic. I even had so random person on Tribe ask me for photo advise. This was after the two recent random photo shoots that I had in the past two weeks. I have to make money somehow. Hopefully involving pictures.I spent my last $9 dollars today on food. At least I'm eating. That is a good thing.
I need someone to run around the streets and yell shit with. That is definitely the mood I am in. Nothing else will make me happy right now. Maybe I'll just go harrass the people at the bar since I have no desire to actually go in myself. Fuck this noize. I just won't even think about it. Next week is Apocalipstick anyways. If i don't have a gig that night I'm going. Circus of Insanity here I come. Though I am already here. Nothing can change that. I love the fissure that dominates this part of the world.
It's just this random crack along the California coast that makes things so fucked up along here. I'm not just talking about the physical fault lines, but some weird warpedness in time and space. Everything is coming in 2's . Gemini Time! This is my time of the year. I feel stronger than ever before, but it's like being all dressed up with no where to go. Sinnerman. I love that song. It's true no where to run to. Fight this shit out. I have so much energy I could explode a million times and it wouldn't make a dent in what I can do right now.
I have this feeling that I have to meet someone. I don't know who. I keep getting more strange recurring dreams and she is there. It started that we were at a wheelchair race then we ended up in each others arms. It was really odd especially since I haven't been sleeping. I am so electrified. I need an outlet for my energy. I may help someone set up their studio at some point for shits and giggles and meeting more psychotic freeks, cause we are the best.
I love Long Beach, but I keep going to Babylon like a moth in a flame except the flame doesn't consume me. It actually makes me stronger. The first time I went to Hollywood I felt so drained. Now I can actually thrive off of that energy. All things become clear with time. Just shake in the breeze...