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I'm itching for change, but can't seem to find any that satisfies. all the things I've tried for in the last few months have just slipped away despite my best efforts. I want to quit my job and drop out and move away and lose 40 pounds and fall in love for real. but I'm too impatient to actually do/get any of that.
why do I only listen to female artists? seriously. my last.fm thing top 9 is all girls.
what the hell am I going to do with my life?
am I ever going to get over trying to be perfect? I've finally recognized that it hasn't gotten and never will get me anywhere, but I still can't help trying to always say/do the right thing and look the right way. I try too hard and it gets me absolutely nowhere. on top of it all, I am a terrible roommate and a worse friend and a shitty son and a wannabe victim, when most of the time my problems are pretty much my fault.
oh well.
why do I only listen to female artists? seriously. my last.fm thing top 9 is all girls.
what the hell am I going to do with my life?
am I ever going to get over trying to be perfect? I've finally recognized that it hasn't gotten and never will get me anywhere, but I still can't help trying to always say/do the right thing and look the right way. I try too hard and it gets me absolutely nowhere. on top of it all, I am a terrible roommate and a worse friend and a shitty son and a wannabe victim, when most of the time my problems are pretty much my fault.
oh well.