the process of recovery; mental and physical
Though the car accident is 2 months past, i'm still having trouble with it. i don't know if i will ever be confortable behind the wheel again. I have alot more mobility of my arm now, but it still isn't back. i can get it in almost any normal position but its damn near useless once it gets there.
used to i had physically demanding jobs... carrying 45+ pound boxes up ladders and stuff like that and i felt like i could take care of my self, protect myself if the need arose. But now, for lack of a better word, i feel vulnerable. only half of me works the way it should, and if my shoulder gets hit at just the wrong angle the pain can be crippling.
also there is this really strange thing i've been experiencing lately. you know the feeling you get when your back or a finger needs to crack? well, my whole body feels like that most of the time. its almost like a mental feeling rather than a physical one. it like there is a blockage somewhere inside me.
I know... i must sound crazy
used to i had physically demanding jobs... carrying 45+ pound boxes up ladders and stuff like that and i felt like i could take care of my self, protect myself if the need arose. But now, for lack of a better word, i feel vulnerable. only half of me works the way it should, and if my shoulder gets hit at just the wrong angle the pain can be crippling.
also there is this really strange thing i've been experiencing lately. you know the feeling you get when your back or a finger needs to crack? well, my whole body feels like that most of the time. its almost like a mental feeling rather than a physical one. it like there is a blockage somewhere inside me.
I know... i must sound crazy