in a world all my own
okay this isn't going to be easy but uh, here it goes. hi my name is ricky, and uh, i'm an asshole.....
1. hilary is moving out this weekend, probably today, probably right this second, i was suppose to meet her on friday night to help her finish packing, low and behold i ditch, all day saturday i didn't answer her phone calls, all day today i haven't answered her phone calls. knowing me i will just let this situation blow over somehow, and thing's will get a little bit more tense again, whatever.....
okay number 2. my parents...*sigh* the last time i saw them was their birthday...let's just say it didn't go well, the first hour or so i was sitting out side a craft store smoking and being in a lot of pain because i hadn't really eaten anything in a while. so then after that we go somewhere else and then to the restraunt by this time it's hard for me to walk / talk / focus on really anything real or imaginary. we sit down to order and nothing look's good, and then somone ask's me something about a job and then i loose it and i start bawling, i had to get up and leave the reastraunt like 3 times it took me like 25minutes and the waitress droping the tray of food on the floor to cheer me up. but ever since that day i feel like something has snapped, somewhere deep inside my brain, i dunno. bah
oh the part that make's me an asshole, my mom called and woke up up today at 3, and said they'd come pick me up when i called them back, i haven't really done that yet either, what the fuck is wrong with me??? bah
there was more to post about, but not i feel like i'm going to be sick and i need to smoke...everything is okay everything is okay everything is okay everything is okay everything is okay
*sigh*
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when i hear my name i want to disappear
when i hear my name i want to disappear
oh oh oh
when i see my face i want to disappear
when i see my face i want to disappear
oh oh oh
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1. hilary is moving out this weekend, probably today, probably right this second, i was suppose to meet her on friday night to help her finish packing, low and behold i ditch, all day saturday i didn't answer her phone calls, all day today i haven't answered her phone calls. knowing me i will just let this situation blow over somehow, and thing's will get a little bit more tense again, whatever.....
okay number 2. my parents...*sigh* the last time i saw them was their birthday...let's just say it didn't go well, the first hour or so i was sitting out side a craft store smoking and being in a lot of pain because i hadn't really eaten anything in a while. so then after that we go somewhere else and then to the restraunt by this time it's hard for me to walk / talk / focus on really anything real or imaginary. we sit down to order and nothing look's good, and then somone ask's me something about a job and then i loose it and i start bawling, i had to get up and leave the reastraunt like 3 times it took me like 25minutes and the waitress droping the tray of food on the floor to cheer me up. but ever since that day i feel like something has snapped, somewhere deep inside my brain, i dunno. bah
oh the part that make's me an asshole, my mom called and woke up up today at 3, and said they'd come pick me up when i called them back, i haven't really done that yet either, what the fuck is wrong with me??? bah
there was more to post about, but not i feel like i'm going to be sick and i need to smoke...everything is okay everything is okay everything is okay everything is okay everything is okay
*sigh*
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when i hear my name i want to disappear
when i hear my name i want to disappear
oh oh oh
when i see my face i want to disappear
when i see my face i want to disappear
oh oh oh
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