Back To The Basics
I want to say first off that i appologize to those who i have made affraid of me in the past few days. I don't regret what i have said and stand by it because that is what i felt at the time. Still though i appologize for scarying you for the deep and dark things i have said. I know most people that know me or know of me would never think i could say things that diturbing.
I however don't appologize for the things i have said to one particualr indiviual i have an intense lement of crazed rage for this person and i don't know why yet maybe it ws the way she handled it and didn't do the mature thing that i thought she would which was tell me before she kissed me. I know the heart wants what the hearts once and can't be reccond with no matter how hard you try you just have to follow it blindly. So i hold no grudges i never do and i let it all fade through time and let it flame slowly burn down to a glow.
I had a friend respond to one of my entry's and it was title your my hero. I am no ones hero the things that i have gone through through my life i wish upon anyone. Its a pain that no one should feel and thoughts that know one should have run through their minds. Driving down a highway and spotting a tree and thinking "i wonder if i would live if i hit that tree doing 80mph?". I have gone past the point where i would have actually have done it, but still the thought remains. Even in my darkest time i get back up. It's a never ending battle to strive and keep your trial above the surface of sin and all the bad and hurtful things in life, it will never end.
I realize how many people i have touched and helped in my life and i will continue to do so. I won't let go, I'll keep kicking to the surface before i drown. I will continue to take my walk with jesus and god and become the person i have longed to be. I won't quit until he does and even then i will still reach him no matter what it takes.
I wish everyone has a good day and filled with love
Peace!!
I however don't appologize for the things i have said to one particualr indiviual i have an intense lement of crazed rage for this person and i don't know why yet maybe it ws the way she handled it and didn't do the mature thing that i thought she would which was tell me before she kissed me. I know the heart wants what the hearts once and can't be reccond with no matter how hard you try you just have to follow it blindly. So i hold no grudges i never do and i let it all fade through time and let it flame slowly burn down to a glow.
I had a friend respond to one of my entry's and it was title your my hero. I am no ones hero the things that i have gone through through my life i wish upon anyone. Its a pain that no one should feel and thoughts that know one should have run through their minds. Driving down a highway and spotting a tree and thinking "i wonder if i would live if i hit that tree doing 80mph?". I have gone past the point where i would have actually have done it, but still the thought remains. Even in my darkest time i get back up. It's a never ending battle to strive and keep your trial above the surface of sin and all the bad and hurtful things in life, it will never end.
I realize how many people i have touched and helped in my life and i will continue to do so. I won't let go, I'll keep kicking to the surface before i drown. I will continue to take my walk with jesus and god and become the person i have longed to be. I won't quit until he does and even then i will still reach him no matter what it takes.
I wish everyone has a good day and filled with love
Peace!!