Got to Stop Watching the Clock

[happynoose]

I had one of those freaky episodes that I used to always get as a kid when I went to bed this morning. It's like everything is speeding past me and closing in at the same time. And it won't go away whether my eyes are closed or open. It's hard to explain and I don't know why it happens. And when it is happening I try to make it stop by rubbing my eyes or thinking about something else, but nothing works. And I have to stay awake because if I fall asleep while this is happening it causes a recurring nightmare that I would rather not have. I don't like waking up in a cold sweat crying. I think the last time that happened I was thirteen. I want to find out what the fuck this is or what it means, but how do you research about something like this or talk to someone about it without sounding like a complete headcase.

It's my day off today. Think I might wank to porn until my dick falls off or at least until my balls start hurting.